Moment 12 - Krissy Cela on How She Discovered Her Self-Confidence

00:04when i watch you on instagram the feel that i get from you versus pretty much everybody else other than one other person i've got to be honest he sat in this chair he's actually coming back is joe wicks like when i met joe wicks he is the guy you meet off off off air or whatever is the same guy and he's so fucking genuine and all he cares about is like genuinely helping people but the reason i said to try so i think the reason you're so successful is because you are yourself and you will share it all and when i was watching you on instagram and watching some of your videos you cater to the 99 of people's lives which is the real shit yeah i saw your video this week you did on your story you're waking up and you're saying listen i don't want to wake up today and most people don't admit that because you know a lack of perfection is sometimes perceived as weakness so i wondered how that resonated with you in terms of the importance of your success originating from Chrissy being her truest self. Yeah, you're, you can only be the best version of yourself, right?

01:03And I think if you start trying to be something else, soon enough, it will come out, or you'll start to fall through the cracks, or it will slip, something will slip. And you can only uphold that image. And you know, that presence for so long before it really just fucks up. So the only thing you can do is be the best version of yourself. And this is what I tell people all the time it's never been about other people's perceptions of you it's always been what you think about yourself and if you truly truly believe in yourself you won't want to be anybody else you want to you you won't want to be fake you wouldn't want to be trying to please everyone my job isn't to please everyone were you always at that point no tell me about that oh my god no i mean i remember when i was in a relationship i was 16 years old i was like i'm gonna marry this person I'm so in love.

01:54Like, this is it. And then he cheated on me. And I was like, oh, shit, this is not it. What's his name? No. He does not deserve the airtime, I'll tell you that much. But I was heartbroken and I was trying so hard to please this person. You know, I was trying so hard even in school. I know it sounds petty, but I was trying so hard to fit in all the time. All the time. I remember like this is so this is not cute on my end I'm gonna be honest with you I remember being at school and I'm foreign okay like I'm Mediterranean we're hairy okay and I had a no I had a mustache and the girls used to rip me for it and I was so sad I was like oh my god why am I not like these pretty English girls like I don't understand like I used to feel so shitty about myself constantly trying to like fit in and then when I got cheated on I was like oh my god it must be because I'm not pretty enough it must be because I'm not sexy enough fuck that that's draining what do you mean I constantly have to be something else for someone else I'm never going to be happy and I wasn't happy for such a long time so yeah I just I just fully like exposed my mustache story there that's fine so let's take us from mustache to

03:15self-confidence um what was that journey and what what changed your uh your your self-esteem and your self-confidence what helped you get that confidence in yourself i think for me it was can we just i think that should be the podcast title master no no seriously even sarah doesn't know that i used to have a no guys i'm gonna be honest with you okay like i don't give a fuck i had a mustache growing up okay and all the girls used to rip me the fuck up they used to be like your man your boy like honestly bitchy shit man and i ate my school dinner for six months in a toilet because i didn't have any friends do you think that experience is part of the reason you are who you are today 100 like honestly it's pretty impossible to to break me and when you've broken me understand that you've really like broken me down because it takes a lot now was that we talk about the mustache mustache thing as if it was this sort of trivial thing but i'm guessing what you're saying is you were bullied in school yeah but at the same time it's not like i was constantly bullied like i think i don't know a lot of us go through awkward stages in school trying to make friends trying to be with a cool gang trying to do this trying to do that then you

04:33almost become like mean as well because you're so hurt by everybody else that you only yeah Yeah. So I think, you know, like I remember walking into sixth form one time and a lot of personal things happened in my life and no one wanted to be around me at that point. And I just hated everyone around me. And I was full of anger, constant anger and hate, you know, and I didn't want to be that person anymore, especially after being cheated on. I didn't want to be that person anymore.

05:06and I remember being on the train one day because I used to work in Potter's Bar at the time in this little men's boutique like retail shop and I was coming back home and I remember like the penny dropped and I was like I can try so hard to be sexy and cool and all this stuff other people but I'm not doing anything for myself and that's where the quote do this for you comes from because I signed up to the gym that day and then I walked straight back out and didn't go back for two months I'm not gonna be I'm not gonna lie to you I signed up and I was I'm gonna do this I'm gonna do this I know what to do signed up didn't come back for two months I was like fuck that shit I'm going back I don't know what to do why didn't you go because I was scared I was like who I was like who do you who do you think you are Chrissy trying to be like a fitness girl you don't know what you're doing you know this was like six years ago you don't know what you're doing go back home relax all right relax chill go to work study relax at some point you must have changed your mind yeah I did I did and evidently I did and I was like uh okay no I need to do this like what am I doing I'm so lethargic I'm tired all the time I'm not strong I was never

06:21like um overweight or underweight I was just tired all the time and drained especially mentally so when I got into the gym I remember looking at the leg press machine and I was like what is this transformer I don't know what the fuck to do with this machine and everybody else around me seemed to kind of know what to do and then there was like men there and the women were on the cardio machines and the men were at the weights I didn't care about the cardio machine I was so intrigued by the weights I was like what why do men go there what is it about men that go there and women go there i want to go there and i don't know how to use weights i don't know what i was doing i was training i didn't have anything like no one was on instagram at the time no one was teaching the way social media has literally opened up a book full of information and free content and we didn't i didn't have that at the time i started you know i didn't know what i was doing so how did you i learned you learned i just learned i just was like you know what i'm just gonna do this and i kind of i kind of got addicted to the feeling of how completing a workout made me feel and i started going again and again and i started

07:39learning because what was it doing for you going it was giving me my therapy therapy from what from life from my reality from the fact that i was so depressed or with who i was and so angry at the world and everything the world had done to me and the only time i felt like i could escape was at the gym which is so crazy because the gym is like a chore for people i've got a fucking train today but i went there and i escaped it was therapy and no one could take that feeling away from me not an ex-boyfriend that cheated on me not a mean girl at school not a horrible boss no one