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Rick Rubin: Legendary Music Producer

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§01Transcript · 00:00–09:36

00:00There are no right answers for anything involved in art.

00:03We're all trying experiments to find a way.

00:06And even for the things that I work on,

00:08I don't have a set way that I do anything.

00:10Every, I come to every project blank.

00:13- Maybe you're just a meat vehicle

00:16and you're channeling ideas from somewhere else.

00:18- I believe we know close to nothing,

00:21close to nothing about anything.

00:25If we embrace that not knowing,

00:27we'll have a healthier experience going through life.

00:31- The following is a conversation with Rick Rubin,

00:36one of the greatest music producers of all time,

00:40known for bringing the best out of anyone he works with,

00:43no matter the genre of music or even the medium of art,

00:47or just the medium of creating something beautiful

00:49in this world.

00:50And the list of musicians he produced includes many, many,

00:54many of the greats over the past 40 years,

00:57including the Beastie Boys, Eminem, Metallica,

01:01LL Cool J, Kanye West, Slayer, Tom Petty,

01:04Johnny Cash, Dixie Chicks, Aerosmith, Adele,

01:08Danzig, Red Hot Chili Peppers, System of a Down,

01:11Jay-Z, Black Sabbath.

01:13I can keep going for a very long time here.

01:16Most importantly, Rick is just an amazing human being.

01:20We became fast friends, which is surreal to say,

01:23and is just an incredible honor.

01:26I felt truly heard as a person when I spent the day with him

01:30eating some delicious Texas barbecue,

01:32talking about life, about music, about art, about beauty.

01:37This was a conversation and experience I'll never forget.

01:41This is the Lex Friedman Podcast.

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01:47And now, dear friends, here's Rick Rubin.

01:51Are you nervous?

01:53- I'm not shaky, but I would say I feel uneasy.

01:57And I feel like the sooner we start talking,

01:59the more relaxed we'll get.

02:01- Yeah.

02:02Well, maybe we should sit in this moment

02:03and enjoy the nervousness of it.

02:05Let me start with Nietzsche.

02:08He said, "Without music, life would be a mistake."

02:12What do you think he means by that?

02:14Let's talk some philosophy.

02:16Let's try to analyze Friedrich Nietzsche from a century ago.

02:22- It seems like music has the ability to bring us

02:26so much depth in our soul

02:31that's hard to access any other way.

02:33And without it, there would be a loss

02:37beyond the pleasure of it.

02:39Feels like it's a window into something else.

02:45- Something that no other medium

02:47can express quite the same way.

02:51- I would say not as automatically.

02:53Something about music can do it automatically.

02:56Maybe poetry or maybe certain abstract forms

03:01can get us there.

03:04But there's something about music

03:06that really can get us there quickly.

03:09- But it's also the time, the place, the history.

03:12There's something about,

03:14like a lot of my family's still in Philly,

03:16there's something about driving through Jersey

03:20and listening to Bruce Springsteen.

03:22And then it just, I'll get like emotional.

03:25Like listening to "I'm On Fire."

03:30That like, one of my favorite Bruce Springsteen songs,

03:33there's a haunting kind of strumming to it.

03:38It's not a strumming, it's actually picked.

03:41Has a country feel to it,

03:43almost like a Johnny Cash feel actually.

03:45And it, I don't know, makes me feel,

03:47so for people who don't know "I'm On Fire,"

03:50that song is, I guess, a love song to a woman

03:55that you can't have because she's married

04:01or she's with somebody else,

04:03which I guess is quite a lot of love songs.

04:06But there's something about the haunting nature

04:08of the guitar and then it has to be driving through Jersey.

04:12And I feel like everyone has fallen in love

04:16with a Jersey girl at one point in their life.

04:18I don't know if that's true for everybody.

04:21But I feel like that.

04:22I haven't either, but I just feel like that.

04:25There's something about Bruce Springsteen's like,

04:26"Yeah, I've been there."

04:28And that just takes you to a place of emotion

04:33that you just, that captures love,

04:37that captures longing, that captures the heartbreak

04:40of just the way time flows in life

04:42and the fact that it's finite

04:43and just all of that in a single, simple song.

04:47What else can capture that?

04:49- Yeah, I don't know.

04:50But it's true that there's a connection

04:53both between time and place and music.

04:55Certain music growing up on the East Coast

05:02didn't really resonate with me

05:03until I spent time on the West Coast.

05:05Eagles being an example.

05:06When I lived in New York,

05:08the Eagles didn't really speak to me.

05:09ZZ Top didn't really speak to me.

05:12And then when I started spending time in California

05:14and driving through Laurel Canyon,

05:16all of a sudden the music of the Eagles

05:18felt appropriate somehow.

05:21And I started listening to it more.

05:23- Got it.

05:24So not until you went out West

05:26can you understand the sounds of the West.

05:29So it's really like New York has a sound.

05:32What other places have a sound in the United States?

05:34- I think every place does.

05:36And that said, sometimes we can get an experience

05:40through music of a place,

05:42like we can resonate with the music and not understand why.

05:46And then maybe when we go to the place where it was created,

05:49it's almost like we have a knowingness of that place.

05:52It's not a strange place anymore.

05:54- Yeah, Stevie Ray Vaughan with blues and Texas blues.

05:58You can just listen to Texas Flood and just,

06:01again, there's like a woman you're missing, a broken heart,

06:04and somehow that connects you to the place.

06:07The Eagles, what song with the Eagles connects with you?

06:11Are we talking about like "Take It Easy"

06:15or are we talking more like "Hotel California"?

06:18- I'm thinking "Take It Easy," but both are great.

06:21- Yeah, there's certain songs

06:23when I started learning guitar when I was young

06:27that's like, I would like to be the kind of person

06:29that not only knows how to play this song,

06:31but understands this song.

06:33And like have that song be something I played 20 years ago.

06:38And I've lived with that song for a while.

06:42Like "Hotel California" is an example.

06:45Obviously there's the solo,

06:47but there's also the soulfulness of the lyrics,

06:50which I still don't understand.

06:51And it could be about anything.

06:52And as you get older,

06:53I feel like the meaning of the song could be anything.

06:56- Yeah, I think that's true.

06:57I think that's the beauty of them.

06:59I think when the person wrote them,

07:00they may have had one interpretation,

07:03but it's not contingent on us getting that interpretation

07:08to like it or resonate with it or feel it.

07:12In some ways, the best art is open enough

07:17where the artist gets to have their experience

07:21when they make it.

07:22And then the audience gets to have their experience

07:24when they listen and they don't have to be the same.

07:26- And then it connects thousands

07:28or millions of people together.

07:30There's a togetherness of music when you share that music,

07:34when you're listening to stuff together, like in a car.

07:36First of all, the car is a sacred place.

07:39So I work in part on autonomous vehicles.

07:43And you start to think, well, what are the things you lose

07:46when the car stops being the central part of American life?

07:51The car ownership.

07:54It just feels like the car, when you're alone,

07:57it's like a therapist thing, session,

08:01because you get angry at other humans,

08:04you get to, and then you get to like sit

08:07in your own anger and emotion.

08:09You get to listen to the song on a long road trip

08:12and remember, like run through your memories,

08:17the heartbreak, I don't know, the one that got away,

08:20but also like the beautiful moments, all of it.

08:23Yeah.

08:26And all of that in the car. (laughs)

08:28- Yeah, driving also serves another purpose.

08:30And it's one of the things that we can do

08:34that we have to pay attention enough,

08:39not to crash, but typically can essentially run

08:44on autopilot enough where we could be thinking

08:46about something else or concentrating on something else.

08:50And the difference between concentrating on something

08:53or trying to solve a problem,

08:55when you're solely trying to solve a problem

08:57versus when you have some little task

08:59that's keeping you occupied,

09:01I find if I have something slight to take care of,

09:09it frees a more creative side of my mind

09:12to better solve problems.

09:15- You know, I'm kind of jealous of people

09:17that found that in painting, for example.

09:19They'll be drawing or painting and listening to,

09:22so that's the small task you do.

09:25You're coloring in the lines.

09:27It's like this gentle, peaceful, slow process

09:31that requires just a small fraction of your mind

09:33and then you can listen.

09:34Some people listen to podcasts that way.

09:36Some people listen to music that way.

§02Transcript · 09:39–18:46

09:39Yeah.

09:39- How do you do it?

09:40How do you free your mind?

09:42- Running is one of them.

09:49There's a process.

09:54So most freeing of the mind for me has to go

09:58through a process of a bit of pain for a bit.

10:01So doing something difficult,

10:02it's just like a airplane taking off or something.

10:06So I have to, like for example, running,

10:09the first few miles would just be just,

10:12first of all, the physical aspect,

10:14which is like, ah, you're so fat, you're out of shape,

10:17you're, this is, this is, getting old, this, that.

10:20Okay, that slowly dissipates.

10:22And then the demons come in who are like,

10:25you should be getting this and that and this done.

10:30You haven't gotten it done.

10:31You're like breaking promises,

10:33all those kinds of voices coming in.

10:36And after that, maybe mile four, it's like, fuck it.

10:41You just, you just run, run with the wind

10:43at a very slow pace, but with the wind,

10:45and then, and then you could think.

10:47So it's the footsteps, the physical activity,

10:50then you could deeply think about stuff, ideas,

10:54sort of design, whether it's program design stuff

10:57or like high level life decisions,

10:59all those kinds of things.

11:00I would say running.

11:02I used to build bridges from toothpicks.

11:05It used to be a thing.

11:07It's an engineering, I guess some people like

11:10glue together airplanes and stuff like that.

11:13But the bridges, it's such deeply honest work

11:17because at the end of it,

11:19you're gonna have to test that bridge.

11:21And you're gonna see how good your work was,

11:24the little details, but also the big picture.

11:26- Do you use glue or no?

11:28- Yeah, I use glue.

11:30So it's not pure physics.

11:32It's materials engineering too.

11:36'Cause the way you want to do it is

11:40you actually split the wood as thin as possible

11:42and then glue it back together

11:43'cause the glue is really strong,

11:46except for the arches and things like that.

11:49So you're building arch bridges,

11:50which is a whole nother skill

11:52'cause you have to bend the wood.

11:54And it's so cool 'cause the thing can hold

11:56thousands of times its weight.

11:58And then you get to watch it explode

12:02at a certain point from the pressure.

12:05And when you do a really good job,

12:07it doesn't explode in a kind of some weak point

12:11that you didn't anticipate,

12:12just kind of starts cracking.

12:14Everything cracks, everything explodes.

12:17It's just pieces fly everywhere.

12:20And it's literally hundreds of hours of work

12:23just explode in front of you.

12:26And that's a metaphor for life maybe.

12:29And it's all for nothing.

12:30(laughs)

12:31Except for the journey that you took to get there.

12:34And no one understands.

12:37Speaking of which, back to Nietzsche.

12:40These questions are ridiculous.

12:42So you're gonna have to try to figure out

12:46what the heck I'm trying to do here.

12:48So Nietzsche also said,

12:49a line I love, which is,

12:53and those who were seen dancing

12:55were thought to be insane by those

12:56who could not hear the music.

12:58Do you, Rick Rubin, ever feel crazy?

13:02Or maybe you're the one who's sane

13:05and everybody else is crazy.

13:07You know that the dancing, the joy of the music,

13:11of just feeling the music

13:13and everybody else just doesn't understand.

13:15And this doesn't have to be literally about music.

13:17This is about art, about creation.

13:21- I would say I feel different.

13:24And it's hard to say, it's like,

13:29which side of the equation is crazy, you know?

13:33- Did you ever find a group of people

13:37that you get, they get you?

13:39- Yes.

13:40- Is that what producing is essentially?

13:42Is you try to find the moments

13:43when you just get each other?

13:45- No.

13:48I would say they're definitely,

13:51certain artists with certain temperaments,

13:58when you're around them,

13:59it feels like you can finish each other's sentences,

14:02you know, just see the world the same way.

14:04Comedians as well.

14:06- And that's not essential for the two of you together

14:12creating something special?

14:14- No, no.

14:16- So it could be attention too?

14:18- It could be anything, it could be any,

14:19there's no rules.

14:21It'd be like, think of it like a coach.

14:24A coach could bring what they have to bring

14:29to any talented individual

14:31and help them find their way.

14:35And sometimes it's the right,

14:38the right coach for the right athlete really works.

14:41And other times there's a mismatch.

14:44- Have you seen the movie "Whiplash"?

14:46- I did.

14:47- When it came out, so I don't really remember it well,

14:49but I did see it.

14:50- So there's a coach type of figure

14:52who is pushing a drummer to create,

14:56to grow as a musician,

14:58but also to create something special.

15:00I don't know if it's even special music skill wise,

15:02it's a special moment.

15:04I don't know what he's trying to create.

15:06From one perspective, it's just an abusive,

15:08a person who selfishly gets off on being abusive

15:11to those he's with.

15:12But from another perspective, the way I saw that movie,

15:15it's just the two right humans finding each other

15:20at the right moment in life

15:21and risking destroying each other in the process,

15:24but maybe something beautiful will come of it.

15:27Do you think that's a toxic relationship?

15:31Or is there, does some of that movie resonate with you

15:37as that sometimes is required to create art?

15:40That kind of suffering.

15:43- Yeah, it doesn't.

15:44Well, there's suffering involved,

15:46but not that kind of suffering.

15:47Not for me.

15:50There are some people who that's their process

15:53and that's whatever works.

15:55There's no right answers for anything involved in art.

15:58We're all trying experiments to find a way.

16:02And even for the things that I work on,

16:04I don't have a set way that I do anything.

16:06I come to every project blank

16:10and see, I really listen to what the artist plays and says.

16:15And through what they explain they wanna do,

16:23help find the best way to get there.

16:29Was it implicit in the movie

16:32that the mean teacher liked being a mean teacher?

16:38You said the way you described it

16:40was that he got off on treating people this way.

16:43Do we know that to be the case?

16:44I don't remember that in the movie.

16:45- But we sometimes project that onto people,

16:47people who are really rough on students.

16:52You start to think, well, maybe,

16:54maybe that is fundamentally who they are.

17:01And if it's fundamentally who they are,

17:03that there must be some pleasure in it

17:05or it's an addiction of some sort.

17:07But it could be also a deliberate choice made by the teacher.

17:12- It also could be a lineage.

17:15Like in the Zen tradition,

17:17there are sort of the mean Roshis,

17:22who if you do something wrong, take a physical action.

17:27And it's just in the lineage,

17:30it's considered that's how you teach.

17:35I didn't come from that lineage.

17:37So I'm much more of a,

17:39I feel like it's more of a collaboration

17:43between people working together to make the best thing.

17:46It's not a boss-slave relationship at all.

17:51It's much more of a, let's find our way.

17:54And we agree at the beginning of the process

17:57that if either of us or any of us

18:02don't like what's happening, we say it.

18:04And the goal is to keep working

18:05until we get to a point where we're all really happy with it.

18:09It's like if we make something

18:10that an artist likes and I don't like,

18:13or that I like and they don't like,

18:14we haven't gone far enough.

18:16- In terms of lineage,

18:19the ones that seek destruction

18:21and the ones that seek happiness

18:22all come from the same lineage.

18:23Well, it came from fish.

18:24So somewhere in you, deep down,

18:28there's the other stuff too.

18:30It's just that you haven't been yet, by the way,

18:33'cause you said every new project,

18:35including maybe starting today,

18:37is an opportunity to channel, to plug into something

18:42that was always there

18:43and you haven't gotten a chance to plug into.

18:46You mentioned listening.

§03Transcript · 18:47–28:23

18:47How do you listen to a person?

18:49How do you hear a person?

18:51When you first come in, like we just met,

18:54what's the analysis happening?

18:57But I mean, with me is one thing.

18:59I'm an artist of sorts.

19:00I program and I'm just, I'm human, I guess.

19:05We're all creating art.

19:08How do you see, like, how do I bring out?

19:10So for people who don't know,

19:12I mean, obviously everyone knows

19:16that you've produced some of the greatest records ever,

19:19but the way I see that is you just brought out the best

19:24in a lot of interesting artists.

19:27And so in order to bring out the best

19:30in them, you have to understand them.

19:33You have to hear the music of their soul,

19:38hopefully I'm not being too romantic here,

19:39but just like, is there something you can say

19:44of how difficult that is, if there's a process,

19:48if there's tricks, if it's luck?

19:51- I think it starts with this, again, coming in blank,

19:56like not having any preconceived ideas,

19:59being open and really listening,

20:01listening and not thinking about what you're gonna say next

20:05or what your opinion is or any,

20:07basically being a recorder and just hearing what comes in.

20:14And then once you hear what comes in,

20:16processing that information and trying our best to do that

20:21without any of the beliefs that we might have

20:25to impact what that is.

20:29If I ask you a question, I don't wanna hear what,

20:31I don't wanna listen to you and have any reaction happening

20:36when you're speaking.

20:37I wanna be as neutral as possible.

20:41For me, my goal is not to form an opinion,

20:46it's to understand.

20:48So if anything, I would draw you out further

20:52and just ask questions to really understand.

20:56- And if you say something that somehow triggers me

21:01in a way that I wonder how he came to that,

21:08I wouldn't challenge you, I would ask,

21:11how did you find that?

21:12How did you get to that place?

21:14- Form a place of curiosity.

21:16You would try to figure out--

21:17- Yeah, I wanna understand who the person is

21:20and through questioning, we can usually get there

21:22or through just spending time together,

21:26you find out who the person is.

21:29- What about finding out and figuring out

21:31how to then take the next steps

21:33of bringing out the best in them?

21:36Is it just trial and error?

21:40Let's try this.

21:41- It's definitely trial and error.

21:42It's always trial and error.

21:44- Are you afraid of making a mistake?

21:47Let's add this instrument, let's remove this instrument.

21:50- Let's try. - Let's add this line,

21:51let's remove this line.

21:52- Let's try.

21:53And let's be open.

21:55So one of the, we don't really have rules,

21:59but one of the agreements in the studio

22:02is any idea that anyone has,

22:05we'll always demonstrate it, we'll always try it

22:09because I can describe to you an idea

22:11and you can think that's a terrible idea,

22:14let's not do that.

22:16And then I can play you the idea

22:18and then you can say, oh, that's really good.

22:19And it's completely different because we,

22:22when we're told something,

22:25we have to imagine what that is.

22:28And the way you see something and imagine it

22:30and the way I see something and imagine it

22:32are completely different.

22:33- So you say a thing and now there's two humans

22:36that play that thing in their mind differently,

22:39in their imagination,

22:40and then there's a cool creative step

22:43and when you actually do it,

22:44to see how it differs in the imagination,

22:46and then the difference or the commonality

22:49will be like an exciting little discovery together.

22:52- So many groups of people making things together in a room,

22:57one person will suggest something

22:59and someone else in the room say,

23:00"Ah, that doesn't sound like a good idea,

23:01let's not do that."

23:02And then they move on.

23:03The testing of every idea is really important

23:07and that's how you get to see,

23:09oh, that's not at all what I thought it was gonna be.

23:11Happens to me all the time, I know,

23:13because someone will suggest,

23:15why don't we do it like this?

23:16And I'll think, that sounds bad.

23:19And then I'll think, okay, let's try it.

23:21And then we hear it and then eight times out of 10,

23:24it's nothing like I imagined and great.

23:26- And you try not to have an ego about the fact

23:30that you thought it was not a good idea in your head.

23:33- There can't be any ego in this.

23:36If everyone's there with the purpose

23:43of making the best thing we can,

23:45there's nothing else.

23:49There can't be any boundaries to that.

23:52- So there's a moment I saw with,

23:56I know you don't love talking about

23:59previous things you've done,

24:00but it's cool to dive in there.

24:02- I'm fine to talk to maybe.

24:04- To sample it.

24:04Anything?

24:06Well, I have this pain I gotta talk now.

24:09I'll think of something ridiculous

24:12that would make you change your mind.

24:16You mentioned, I saw a video of you with Jay-Z

24:19and working on 99 Problems where you suggested acapella,

24:23opening the song with acapella,

24:25just no instruments, just voice.

24:28That to me, I mean, that's one of the characteristics

24:33of the things, of the ways you've brought out

24:36the best in an artist is doing less.

24:38Sort of the tending towards simplicity in some kind of way.

24:43So that choice of acapella is really interesting

24:45'cause I could see a lot of people think

24:47that that's a bad idea,

24:49but it turned out to be a really powerful idea.

24:52Can you maybe talk about the simplicity,

24:55how to find simplicity,

24:56why you find simplicity is beautiful?

24:58It does appear to be beautiful.

25:00What is that?

25:01- Yeah, I don't know where it comes from.

25:03It has been with me from the beginning of my work.

25:07The very first album I ever produced,

25:10the credit I took was reduced by me

25:12instead of produced by me.

25:15For that reason, I like the idea

25:17of getting to the essential.

25:19And I have a better idea now that I've done it for a while,

25:24but at the time it was purely an instinctual thing.

25:28And part of it is a sonic, there's a sonic benefit,

25:33which is the less elements you have,

25:36you can hear each of the ones that are there

25:40and they can sound better.

25:42And the less there are,

25:44the more space they could have around them

25:47and the more you can hear their personality.

25:49If you were to record 10 people playing the same guitar part

25:54and you listen to it, it would sound like guitar.

25:58And if you record one person playing a guitar part,

26:02it sounds like a person playing the guitar.

26:05It's different than just guitar.

26:07And often in the studio,

26:11the idea of building upon things

26:14and adding layers to thicken, to make it sound bigger,

26:18sometimes the more things you add, the smaller it gets.

26:23So a lot of it is counterintuitive

26:27until you just in practice see what works.

26:30- To try it, to try removing stuff until it's just right.

26:33It's the Einstein thing,

26:35make it as simple as possible, but not simpler.

26:40That's such a, like finding a stopping place,

26:44just keep chopping away and chopping away.

26:47- Yeah, there's something we also like to do

26:49called the ruthless edit, which is,

26:51let's say you're at a point where it can work for anything,

26:55but I'll give you the example with an album.

26:57We've recorded 25 songs.

27:02We think the album is gonna have 10.

27:05Instead of picking our favorite 10,

27:08we limit it to what are the five or six

27:11that we can't live without?

27:13So going past even the goal

27:18to get to the real like heart of it,

27:20and then see, okay, we have these five or six

27:22that we can't live without.

27:24Now, what would we add to that

27:27that makes it better and not worse?

27:35- It puts you in a different frame

27:38when you start with building instead of removing.

27:42- And you might find that there's nothing you need to add.

27:45- Sometimes.

27:46Sometimes something happens when you get to the real essence.

27:51Then when you start adding things back,

27:52it becomes clear that it was just supposed to be

27:56this tight little thing.

27:59- Can I ask you like a therapy session question?

28:02So you mentioned somewhere that one way

28:05to kind of think about music to get into music

28:09is to look at the top like 100 albums of all time

28:12and just go down the list and like just take it all in

28:15like one piece of artwork.

28:17So I was doing that for a while.

28:20It's a cool experiment 'cause unfortunately I have to admit,

28:23I've gotten lazy and stopped taking in albums as albums.

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28:29And I looked at one interesting top 100 list,

28:32top 500 actually, which is put together by Rolling Stone.

28:36And they put, this is the therapy session part,

28:39and this has to do with simplicity too.

28:41They put Marvin Gaye's "What's Going On" at number one.

28:44Spoiler alert.

28:44So I'd like to maybe get your opinion on that choice.

28:51The reason Marvin Gaye is really interesting,

28:53it'd actually be cool to play what's going on in a second,

28:57but when you just listen to his like acapella,

29:02just listen to his voice, it is really good.

29:05It makes me wonder if it's possible to pull off

29:10like most of his songs with no instruments.

29:13In many parts, there's so much soul

29:17in just "Mercy, Mercy Me," "What's Going On."

29:21There's so many songs that you could just be like,

29:23"I wonder if you could just like, just go raw."

29:28Or maybe in parts, or maybe do what you do with Jay-Z,

29:30just open up with nothing.

29:31Anyway, there's something so powerful

29:33to a great soulful voice.

29:36Do you mind if I play it real quick?

29:37- No, please.

29:38- "What's Going On."

29:39This is probably one of my favorite songs.

29:41I mean, it's up there.

29:42(indistinct chatter)

29:46(upbeat music)

29:52(upbeat music)

29:54That voice.

30:01♪ There's too many of you to cry ♪

30:07♪ Brother, brother, brother ♪

30:11♪ There's far too many of you to die ♪

30:14There's some just very subtle backing vocals.

30:16♪ You know we've got to find ♪

30:21♪ To bring some loving in today ♪

30:26♪ Father, father ♪

30:29This one hurts.

30:31♪ We don't need to escalate ♪

30:33Father, father, we don't need to escalate.

30:36♪ You see, war is not the answer ♪

30:40♪ For only love can hold a hand ♪

30:44- I wonder who the father he's talking about is.

30:47- Oh, that's interesting.

30:48I mean, so for people who don't know,

30:50his own father ended up killing Marvin Gaye.

30:55I mean, that one is really painful.

30:58I mean, for a lot of people,

30:59your relationship with your father, your mother,

31:01I mean, there's different dynamics,

31:03but it's almost like part of life is resolving

31:06some kind of complex puzzle you have

31:08with the people you love, the people close to you,

31:10or the people who are not there, all those kinds of things.

31:14That's so much pain in that,

31:15we don't need to escalate, father, father.

31:17I never thought if it's,

31:19I always thought it's his father directly.

31:22- Yeah, I don't get that.

31:23It could be, but I don't, I feel like it's a more

31:26masculine spirituality.

31:33- Like a father figure,

31:34or just broadly some kind of spirituality.

31:37- Could be like God, father God, mother God,

31:41you know, like could be, I don't know.

31:44- But there's so much, it's like both hope and melancholy.

31:49- You're saying war's not the answer.

31:51It's like, you don't tell that your father war's not,

31:53your blood father war's not the answer.

31:56It's a strange conversation.

31:58It's a bigger conversation than a personal.

32:01- Don't you think it feels like war when it's personal?

32:05What's the difference between,

32:06is, war is personal too.

32:11It's only leaders think about war in a geopolitical sense.

32:14When people that fight wars, you lose your brothers,

32:18you lose, I mean, death is just right there.

32:21So it might feel just like that.

32:22But yeah, there is a dance between like the personal

32:26and like talking to the entirety of the society.

32:28It's like John Lennon, imagine,

32:30also a song where, is that hopeful?

32:36Is that cynical?

32:38Is it like melancholy?

32:41Like heartbroken?

32:43Like you hope, you wish things would be a certain way

32:47and they're not.

32:48Yeah, I don't know.

32:49I don't know if John Lennon is giving up

32:50on the world in "Imagine."

32:52- Yeah, I don't know.

32:53No, it's an interesting question.

32:55There's another John Lennon lyric in,

32:58let me think of what it is, take me a second.

33:04Different songs keep coming into my head.

33:11It's not the one that I'm looking for.

33:12- And you keep pressing next.

33:14- Um,

33:15cross the universe.

33:20Nothing's gonna change my world.

33:23And when I hear that, I hear it as hopeless.

33:30But I don't think, I don't believe that that's,

33:35well, it may be how he meant it,

33:38but I don't think that's how it's normally taken.

33:43- And it's also the taker is important.

33:46I'm generally optimistic and hopeful,

33:47so I always look for the hope.

33:49And actually the harshest love heartbreak songs

33:54are somehow hopeful to me.

33:56That's a love song.

33:57To me, a song about losing love

34:01is a song about the great capacity for love

34:06in the human heart.

34:07That's what I hear.

34:08So to me, losing love is exciting.

34:12'Cause it's like, that means you really cared.

34:15That means you felt something, you feel something,

34:17you can sit in that pain,

34:18and that pain is a reminder of what it means to be human.

34:21When you're that, what is it?

34:24We're just listening.

34:26The only man who could have reached me

34:29was the son of a preacher man.

34:30So it's like that early love or something,

34:33partially sexual or whatever.

34:35That's not as interesting to me.

34:36It's fun, it's great.

34:37But it's that heartbreak.

34:39That's the reminder that it can go deep.

34:41Although that's a damn good song.

34:43- Have you ever heard the Detroit mix

34:46of the Marvin Gaye album?

34:48- No.

34:49- Call it up.

34:51By far better.

34:54Mind-blowing.

34:55I just heard it recently, blew my mind.

34:57(upbeat music)

35:01- Oh, wow.

35:04Reverb.

35:04Distant.

35:11Interesting.

35:12♪ There's too many of you to cry ♪

35:17♪ Brother, brother, brother ♪

35:21♪ There's far too many to love you, die ♪

35:24- Feels like it's all around the room more.

35:26♪ I know we've got to find a way home ♪

35:31♪ To bring some loving here today ♪

35:36- More voices.

35:38More voices.

35:41♪ For you to escalate ♪

35:46♪ War is not the answer ♪

35:49♪ For only love can end ♪

35:51- He's layering his own vocals.

35:52♪ You know we've got to find a way ♪

35:59♪ To bring some loving here today ♪

36:04- Feels like there's multiple people singing.

36:10♪ Punish me with brutality ♪

36:14♪ Talk to me so you can see ♪

36:18♪ Oh, what's going on, what's going on ♪

36:21- Yeah, that's beautiful.

36:22- Yeah.

36:23Seems to have more energy.

36:24If you listen to the whole album,

36:26even though you just said you don't listen to albums anymore,

36:29the Detroit mix of the whole album changes the album a lot.

36:33- I mean, that felt,

36:36so that's the opposite of a cappella, I would say.

36:38- Yes.

36:39- 'Cause it's,

36:40there's layers, there's,

36:44and maybe, I don't know if you remember,

36:47but if memory serves me correct here,

36:51he produces this own album here, Marvin Gaye

36:54was the producer on this, I believe.

36:56- I believe so.

36:57And this one sounds more like it's a get-together.

37:00And the whole album sounds more like a get-together

37:02where it's a group of people in a room

37:04playing music together,

37:06whereas the album version sounds more like a recording.

37:11This sounds less like a recording

37:13and a little more like a party.

37:14- Now, you had a series of conversations

37:17with Paul McCartney, which is amazing

37:19that people should watch,

37:21but is there, this is continuing our therapy session,

37:24is there a case to be made that what's going on

37:28is number one album above the Beatles,

37:31a white album, or Abbey Road above Pet Sounds?

37:36Can you still manage case?

37:38- There's always a case.

37:39I mean, there's always a case.

37:41In reality, in art, there is no metric that makes sense.

37:46So you could put numbers on things,

37:50but it's like, is this apple better than this peach?

37:55Like, it's not really a fair comparison.

37:59- But if you just had to keep one

38:01to represent the human species,

38:02that's the way I think to the aliens.

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38:05- So I think it's a very personal decision.

38:07I think you can make your choice

38:10to represent the human species and I'll make mine.

38:13- Well, I would pick the Beatles over the Beach Boys,

38:16so that's my, if I became dictator of the world

38:18and was talking to the aliens,

38:20but I don't know the full historical context

38:22to the impact of the music.

38:24I don't know if that's something to consider,

38:26like this kind of thought experiment

38:29of imagine what it was like back then

38:32to create, to go into the studio,

38:35to do such interesting work in the studio,

38:38as opposed to like listening to just as a pop song almost.

38:44'Cause I've never been able to understand

38:46Beach Boys, God Only Knows.

38:50- The song God Only Knows?

38:53- God Only Knows, but all of it,

38:54the album, the Pat Siles just--

38:56- In My Room?

38:57- What, In My Room?

39:00- That song.

39:02- Is that, what was your favorite on the album?

39:04That non-favorite? - On the Pat Siles album?

39:06- Pat Siles.

39:07- The opening track.

39:08- Do you mind if I play it?

39:10- Please.

39:11- It's too fun.

39:14- That's part of their trip though.

39:18- You open the heart with the fun?

39:22- It's possible.

39:28Original mono and stereo mix versions.

39:32- What's the opening song?

39:33Wouldn't It Be Nice?

39:35Yeah, that's the song.

39:36(upbeat music)

39:40♪ Wouldn't it be nice if we were older ♪

39:48♪ Then we wouldn't have to wait so long ♪

39:52♪ And wouldn't it be nice to live together ♪

39:56♪ In the kind of world where we belong ♪

40:01♪ No one's gonna make it that much better ♪

40:05♪ When we can say goodnight and start living together ♪

40:07- This part is good, man.

40:09And then back to fun.

40:12- Yeah, that we could say goodnight and stay together.

40:16Wouldn't that be nice?

40:17- Wouldn't it be nice?

40:18- To wake up together.

40:19But we're not.

40:20- There's heartbreak in this one too.

40:24- Still, to me, George Harrison,

40:26is that the way the album, While My Guitar Gently Weeps?

40:31With the Beatles, it's so hard to,

40:37depending on the day, I'll say a very different song

40:40that's my favorite song, but I often return

40:42to While My Guitar Gently Weeps as my favorite song.

40:45- Spectacular, it's spectacular.

40:46- And anything George Harrison, honestly.

40:48Something in the way she moves.

40:50What would you classify that?

40:54- There's several Beatles songs,

40:56categories of Beatles songs.

40:57That's the melancholy love songs

40:59or ballads or something like that.

41:01Yesterday, Let It Be.

41:04Do you have favorites?

41:08So from your, how have you changed as a man,

41:11as a human being, as a musician and music producer,

41:13ever having done that lengthy interaction with McCartney?

41:21- Anytime you're around someone who's such a hero

41:26and you spend time with them and they're a human being,

41:30it helps put perspective on everything.

41:32- Oh, that they're just human?

41:34- Well, obviously.

41:35I mean, everyone's just human.

41:37But I remember the first time I got to see

41:40Paul McCartney play live, it was in a stadium

41:43of 70,000 people and he started playing

41:46and I started crying and I couldn't believe I was in,

41:50even with 70,000 people, I couldn't believe

41:52that this man walks the earth

41:55and that I'm in the same place as him

41:58and he's the person who wrote that and played that

42:01and now he's here playing it for us.

42:04Mind-blowing.

42:06That's the voice.

42:07- That's the, I--

42:09- It's overwhelming.

42:10- Is it inspiring or is it,

42:14like, 'cause sometimes when you have,

42:18and I've gotten a chance to meet,

42:21I mean, I love people in general,

42:22like every person is fascinating to me,

42:24but yeah, when you've been a fan for a long time

42:27and you meet a person, sort of,

42:30I'll just remove present company,

42:32is you, it's like, oh, they're just human.

42:37So there's both, it's both inspiring

42:41that just a simple human can achieve such beautiful things,

42:45but it's also like almost wishing

42:47there were gods moving around us.

42:50It's somehow peaceful.

42:53It's more comforting to know that there's,

42:57there's bigger fish, I'm just a small fish,

43:02and then there's bigger fish,

43:03and they will take care of the ocean for us.

43:05- I think we're all capable of being big fish.

43:08I don't think that there are special people.

43:11I don't think it's like that.

43:14I would make a case, so the variety of artists

43:19that you worked with and brought the best out of,

43:22it does seem that you're out of this world.

43:26So do you think you would know,

43:30like, if you're the same kind of species,

43:35maybe you're just a meat vehicle,

43:38and you're channeling ideas from somewhere else?

43:40- I feel like I'm channeling ideas

43:42from somewhere else, 100%.

43:44But I think--

43:45- Have you asked questions about where from?

43:47- I believe we all are, though.

43:49I believe we are,

43:52we're vehicles for information

43:57that when it's ready to come through, it comes through,

44:00and the people who have good antennas pick up the signal.

44:03But if, I'm sure you've had an experience in your life

44:07where you've had an idea for something,

44:09and you've not acted on it,

44:11and eventually someone else does it,

44:13and it's not because they're doing it

44:14because you had the idea and they stole your idea,

44:16it's because the time has come for that idea.

44:20And if you don't do it, someone else is gonna do it.

44:22- It's being broadcast by whatever the source is.

44:24- Whatever the source is.

44:26- Yeah, I tend to,

44:29I tend to see humans as not quite special in that way, yeah.

44:33It's different kinds of antennas walking around,

44:36listening to ideas, and ideas that are,

44:39I like the notion of Richard Dawkins of memes,

44:44it's kind of the ideas of the organisms,

44:46and they're just using our brains to multiply,

44:48to select, to compete, to evolve.

44:53And humans, we really wanna hold onto the specialness

44:55of our body, of our mind, but it's really the ideas.

44:59So if Rick Rubin was born two centuries ago,

45:02you wouldn't be a music producer.

45:04You'd be, or I mean, maybe,

45:07but you have an antenna.

45:09And if no signal's coming in,

45:12or you'd be hearing potentially a different signal.

45:16Is there--

45:19- I think we all have our own antenna for whatever it is

45:22that we, maybe not everyone has tuned into their antenna

45:26to see what it is that their strength

45:29in bringing through is.

45:31I'm lucky in that it found me,

45:33'cause I didn't know that it was a,

45:34I didn't even know this was a job.

45:37I sometimes wonder, I mean, a lot of young people,

45:41a lot of people wonder, like, what's the purpose

45:45and the specs of my antenna?

45:48What am I put on this earth to do?

45:52Like if, you know, I can live a thousand lives.

45:58There's so many trajectories.

46:00And imagine the greatest possible trajectory

46:03that reveals the most beautiful thing

46:06I can possibly create in this world.

46:08Live the most beautiful way.

46:10What is that?

46:13I feel like that's a good exercise to think about.

46:16'Cause it's also liberating to think

46:20that you can do anything.

46:22I mean, that, more and more, I suppose that's kind of life.

46:27It's like society is pushing conformity on you.

46:30You know, I thought, I had my own flavor of conformity.

46:34I thought I was supposed to be following.

46:36And then early on, I would say like in the late 20s,

46:40you realize, wait a minute, you don't have to tell,

46:42you don't have to do what teachers tell you to do,

46:45what parents tell you to do, what society tells you to do.

46:49You can, like, I would never wear a suit

46:53if I listened to like my colleagues in community

46:56who think that a suit is like the symbol of, what is it?

47:03A symbol of conformity, actually, which is hilarious.

47:05But it's actually a kind of rebellion

47:08and everything else of that nature,

47:10doing these silly podcasts.

47:12- I have a question I have to ask.

47:16- Sure. - 'Cause you brought up the suit.

47:18- Yeah.

47:19- Do you wear the suit?

47:21Is this your daily uniform outside of podcasting?

47:25- So for the longest time, it was some kind of suit.

47:29And then recently, coinciding with going to Texas,

47:33I'm such a loner, I'm an introvert,

47:38and there's a bit of a hiding from the world

47:41when I wear other stuff.

47:43I really want to not make fame, recognition,

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47:49money, all of those things a motivation at all.

47:58And the world kind of wants you to make those motivations.

48:01Not the world, but I would say maybe the Western world,

48:04maybe America, maybe a capitalist system does.

48:07But--

48:09- That's a choice to buy into that or not.

48:12- Right.

48:13It takes a brave person, a person of character

48:16to not buy in.

48:17And I'm like a baby deer trying to find its legs.

48:22You don't have to buy in.

48:24'Cause I love people, and I think I'm kind of an idiot.

48:27And so when other people say, do this and do that,

48:30there is a pressure there.

48:33It's actually very difficult to not listen necessarily

48:38to the advice of others,

48:40and yet keep yourself fragile and open to the world.

48:43It's easy to be like, I'm always right,

48:47just kind of sticking your ground.

48:50But if you want to be vulnerable,

48:52if you want to connect with people

48:53and just wear your heart on your sleeve,

48:55then you're going to listen to them.

48:56I mean, that's the double-edged sword of it.

48:59But then again, that pain, if you don't let it destroy you,

49:04you can grow from that.

49:06Has fame affected you at all?

49:08Did you unplug from the system at some point?

49:11- Same.

49:12I've always been sort of removed.

49:14I don't feel like I'm part of any system.

49:16- Do you feel famous?

49:19- I'm aware that when I go out,

49:22people say nice things to me, which is great.

49:26(laughing)

49:27But that's about it.

49:28That's about as far as it goes.

49:29- But it doesn't affect your art, about your creativity,

49:32or your thoughts.

49:33Like when you're sitting alone and thinking about the world.

49:36- It can't.

49:37It's a destructive force.

49:39The reason that you're who you are,

49:46and the reason that you're finding the success

49:48you're finding is because you've been true to yourself

49:51to get to that stage.

49:52So to start changing that, to either conform

49:57to someone else's idea of what you should be doing,

50:01it just seems like it doesn't make sense.

50:04- Do you have a sense of who you are?

50:06'Cause I don't necessarily have a--

50:09- I don't know.

50:09I know that I really like making good things,

50:12and I know that I'm crazy about it in that

50:16it's like an obsession.

50:21And I want things to be as good as they could be,

50:22whatever it is.

50:23And if I finish a music project,

50:26and I have a window of time where I'm not working on music,

50:30I might be moving the furniture around in the house.

50:33You know, I'm always looking for a creative outlet

50:38to find a way to make something better.

50:41Or there was a period of time where I was in a weird

50:44corporate situation that was,

50:49that didn't allow me to flourish.

50:52And I turned, I focused the creativity in on myself,

50:56and I lost a bunch of weight and changed my life.

50:59- So that was the kind of art,

51:00like you've gone through a whole process of losing weight,

51:03getting in shape, getting healthy.

51:05That was a kind of creative act.

51:07- It certainly was.

51:08It wasn't an intentional creative act,

51:10but I had a lot of energy.

51:12And I just, a series of events happened.

51:16I read a book.

51:17At the time, that was my heaviest.

51:19I weighed about 318 pounds.

51:21And I'd never been, I'd been sedentary my whole life,

51:24basically laying on a couch working on music.

51:26So I've never been physically active in my life.

51:30And I read a book about a guy named Stu Middleman, a runner,

51:34who ran a thousand miles in 11 days.

51:36And I thought, wow, I get out of breath

51:39walking to the corner,

51:40and another human being can run a thousand miles in 11 days.

51:45I feel like I have bad information.

51:47Clearly I'm doing something wrong.

51:49And I reached out to a person

51:52that Stu mentioned in the book, Phil Maffetone.

51:55- Who's a legend.

51:56I really appreciate him as well.

51:58He's Math 180 Method 2.

52:00He's such an interesting, I think he focuses on--

52:03- Heart rate training.

52:05And he was the first person to talk about essentially a--

52:10- Low carbs.

52:13Paleo, keto diet.

52:17- For a person-- - 40 years ago.

52:20- For a person who's going to be healthy,

52:21who can exercise and actually perform at an early level.

52:25He's the first person when I,

52:28talking about heart rate training,

52:30him and other endurance athletes he influenced,

52:33he gave me permission to run slower.

52:36- Yeah.

52:37- It was the first time I realized,

52:39oh, I can run long distance as if I just run slower

52:42and then take that seriously.

52:45And I actually fell in love with running very much so.

52:48'Cause for me, everyone's different,

52:50but for me the love of running happens

52:53in the longer distances.

52:54- Did you read Born to Run?

52:56Great book.

52:57- Amazing book.

52:58There is something special about running.

53:00And everybody has their own journey with it.

53:04And even ultra marathon running, those kinds of things.

53:09It is like many journeys,

53:12one that can pull you in.

53:15Like you won't be the same person after.

53:17And I try to be deliberate about making choices

53:22after which you'll not be the same person.

53:25And so I'm nervous about the ultra marathon running world.

53:29I have to talk to you about Johnny Cash.

53:37I mean, when people ask me what my favorite musical thing is

53:42of all time,

53:45you know, it's a very difficult question to answer,

53:53of course, but I'm pretty quick,

53:55if I'm not allowed to pick anything by Tom Ways,

53:58I'm pretty quick to say Hurt by Johnny Cash,

54:04the performance, the whatever you call it,

54:06whatever the heck that is.

54:07Because that's not just a song covered by an artist.

54:12That's a human being at the end of their life.

54:17That the rawness of that,

54:21I mean, just there's also a music video,

54:25which for a lot of people adds a lot to it.

54:29For me, just the music alone is,

54:32I mean, the guitar, every choice on that.

54:36See, the few things I've heard about it,

54:39it seemed like almost accidental.

54:41I mean, like little subtle choices here and there.

54:44Can you maybe comment on that to the degree,

54:49I think you had a huge role

54:51in sort of bringing Johnny Cash back

54:53from a different part of his life.

54:56It's like bringing something out that wasn't there before.

54:59And it was incredible.

55:01It was a celebration of a really special musician.

55:04And that's totally new kind of celebration.

55:07Now, Hurt is just one of the songs

55:09that's an amazing celebration of Johnny Cash.

55:13But Hurt is like at the peak of that.

55:17So what was that like putting that song together?

55:20It might be nice to listen to it

55:24'cause I freaking love that song.

55:26And as a guitarist,

55:29I just, the simplicity of it,

55:31it seems like every choice contributes

55:35to the greatness of the song.

55:37(gentle music)

55:41Simple, it's crisp, but it's dark too.

55:51♪ I hurt myself today ♪

55:54- It's one of the greatest opening lines of any song.

55:58♪ If I still feel ♪

55:59- The shape. - I miss that.

56:01- Yeah, to see if I still feel.

56:03- Yeah, I'm talking about the lyrics.

56:04I don't even mean the performance, the words.

56:07♪ The only thing that's real ♪

56:12♪ The needle tears a hole ♪

56:15- But those words out of Trent Reznor are not the same.

56:18They have a different meaning

56:20coming out of Johnny Cash's mouth.

56:22♪ Try to kill it all away ♪

56:28♪ But I remember everything ♪

56:33♪ What have I become ♪

56:38- What have I become?

56:40♪ My sweetest friend ♪

56:43- Written probably for a young man.

56:45- I think he was 20 when he wrote it, Trent.

56:49♪ Goes away in the end ♪

56:55♪ And you could have it all ♪

57:00♪ My empire of dirt ♪

57:03- Anger, regret, pain.

57:06♪ I will let you down ♪

57:11♪ I will make you blue ♪

57:14- The way the guitarist played,

57:20the choice of instrument, the layers there,

57:23the freedom to give him, to use the voice that's fading.

57:28It's not fading, it's changing.

57:34Maybe he's losing some aspects of his voice.

57:38And it's almost like shaking a little bit.

57:43And it's a little bit out of tune in parts.

57:46How much of that was deliberate?

57:52Like, how do you give Johnny Cash the freedom to do that?

57:56How do you find that together?

57:57Is there any insights you can give?

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57:59- I think it's a case almost of like the right,

58:04pairing the right role with the right actor, you could say.

58:08The song lyrics, the reason we chose the song

58:13was because of the lyrics, purely about the lyrics.

58:17And at that point in time,

58:18both Johnny and I would send each other songs

58:20of possible ideas to record.

58:23And that was one that I sent him

58:27and he didn't respond to initially.

58:29I would send him, at that time we would burn CDs

58:32and I would send him like CD of 20 songs or 25 songs.

58:35And then, and he would send them to me.

58:36- You burn a CD for Johnny Cash

58:38and you send him of different songs.

58:39- Of like songs to consider recording.

58:42- Yeah.

58:43- And we would send these back and forth.

58:46And then that I had hurt on one of the ones that I sent him

58:50and he didn't respond.

58:51And usually if he didn't respond, we didn't go back to it.

58:56And that one, I remember I sent it again

58:59and I put it first on the next CD.

59:02And when we spoke about when he listened to the CD again,

59:06he didn't respond.

59:07I said, check out that first song.

59:09And I really feel like that one could be good.

59:11- What did you see in that song?

59:12- It's the lyrics.

59:14It's the lyrics.

59:15'Cause I feel like nobody,

59:16there's very few people in the world

59:18that would see these lyrics in Johnny Cash's mouth

59:24and think this is a good idea, including Trent Reznor.

59:28- Yeah.

59:29I know that Trent had trepidations in the beginning.

59:33But if you listen to the words, if you forget the music

59:36and if you forget what Nine Inch Nails sounds like

59:40and you just read it like a poem,

59:43and then you imagine a 70 year old man reading these lyrics,

59:48it'll be profound.

59:51It's profound.

59:53So that was the, based on the lyrics

59:56that started the journey.

59:58And then at this point in time,

59:59Johnny was not in great health.

60:01And sometimes I would go to Nashville

60:04and record with him at his house.

60:07Sometimes he would come to California,

60:10but he was coming to California less regularly.

60:13And because there were so many songs we wanted to try,

60:17he would start sometimes recording

60:20just a straight acoustic version.

60:22Like he would have someone play guitar, he would sing,

60:25and they would send those to me.

60:27And we would discuss like, is this one to build on?

60:30And that was when we said,

60:32I don't wanna record this one until we're together.

60:35I feel like we should do this one together.

60:37So on the next trip to California,

60:38we recorded it at my old house.

60:43And I mean, all the songs we recorded felt special.

60:48So I can't say this one felt special,

60:55but lyrically it just, it's more,

60:57the lyrics have such a profound sense of regret.

61:02- What have I become?

61:08- Yeah, and to hear, when you're 20 years old,

61:11talking about regret, it's heartbreaking,

61:15but it's heartbreaking in a different way

61:16because you have a whole life to figure it out.

61:19When you're looking back over your life

61:21at the end of your life with regret, it's brutal.

61:25It's brutal.

61:26So that was the initial spark of doing it.

61:30And then when we recorded it,

61:32I believe it was two guitar players,

61:37if I remember correctly, maybe even three,

61:41Smokey Hormel, Matt Sweeney, and Mike Campbell, I believe.

61:46And Ben Montench was playing the piano in my living room

61:51as we were doing it.

61:52And we cut the basic track with Johnny singing.

61:58And then Johnny probably sang over that basic track

62:01a few more times.

62:03And then we comped his vocal and then built up the drama.

62:10And you didn't get to the part,

62:12but at the end of the song, it gets very loud.

62:14The music gets very loud.

62:15It's subtle because it's not anything that takes your ear

62:19and the vocal is so powerful

62:21that you don't really think about what's going on.

62:23- But it's building the whole time musically.

62:24- It's building and it even gets distorted at the end.

62:26It gets really like overpowering.

62:29And that's part of the emotion of it.

62:36- It's a...

62:40(soft music)

62:42I hear almost the anger and frustration.

62:47♪ You know ♪

62:51♪ If I could start again ♪

62:56♪ A million miles away ♪

63:01♪ I would keep myself ♪

63:07♪ I would find a way ♪

63:10- And it just rings out, the clean vocal.

63:15I mean, it's so simple, so incredible.

63:17And it's interesting to have a young man's lyrics

63:20in an old Johnny Cash voice and heart and mind.

63:25Are you a fan of Tom Waits?

63:30- Of course.

63:31- Tom Waits, when he was younger,

63:34there's a song called "Martha,"

63:36but there's a bunch of songs he's written when he was young.

63:38It's like, how does a young man

63:41have that like melancholy wisdom?

63:45The song "Martha" is about an older man

63:49calling a woman he used to love

63:51that she's now married and he's married.

63:54And they're having that conversation.

63:56They haven't spoken for 30 years

63:58and they realize that there's still love there

64:01and it could have been a different life,

64:02a different world where they could have been together.

64:05And here's like a 23-year-old Tom Waits

64:08writing so beautifully about something that's very...

64:12I've had a lot of people like tell me

64:14how real that as an older person,

64:18looking back at that love that you had

64:20and realizing it wasn't, it was really, it's still there.

64:24Inklings of that love are still there.

64:27- I think there's a...

64:28When a young person writes a sad song,

64:36they almost seem more willing to go to a more hopeless place

64:43because they have a long journey ahead.

64:47And older artists tend to wanna look

64:49at the bright side of things,

64:51which also I think comes from the wisdom of aging.

64:54It's a more realistic position.

64:57So it's not uncommon for younger people to write.

65:01I think even in the Beatles,

65:02you'll see like they're very heavy lyrics,

65:07middle to late era Beatles, which is still,

65:11they're in their early 20s, I guess.

65:14- Wow, that's hard to think about.

65:16So much accomplished. - Unbelievable.

65:18- And they went through the full journey

65:22from fun to darkness in the span of a few years.

65:27You mentioned lyrics.

65:30So you've obviously produced albums with incredible lyrics.

65:35I think you've mentioned the interesting characteristics

65:38of hip hop, of rap is that you're writing poetry to rhythm

65:43versus writing poetry to melody.

65:46So that's like one way to think about it.

65:50And I'm a fan, I mean, Tom Waits, Leonard Cohen,

65:53I'm a fan of poetry, period.

65:55Is there something about highlighting the poetry of it,

66:01the power of words as you did with "Hurt"?

66:05- If I have to put, it's one, a Tom Waits song

66:10that's like less than a minute long

66:14that I always go back to, it's one I really love.

66:17And it has just a few lines.

66:18It's called "I Want You."

66:20And all it is is him saying, "I want you."

66:24(gentle music)

66:35♪ I want you, you, you ♪

66:37- This is a 22 year old Tom Waits.

66:40♪ All I want is you, you, you ♪

66:45♪ All I want is you ♪

66:52♪ Give you stars above ♪

67:00♪ The sun on the brightest day ♪

67:05♪ Give you all my love ♪

67:09♪ If only you would see ♪

67:13♪ That I want you, you, you ♪

67:18♪ All I want is you, you, you ♪

67:22- And then he hums for 20 more seconds.

67:27(laughs)

67:27- Yeah, beautiful.

67:28So simple, man, that young man,

67:32but for people who don't know Tom Waits,

67:34you should definitely listen to him.

67:35And his voice sounds very different now.

67:37And it's interesting to see the evolution of a human voice,

67:40the artist over time,

67:45because that's a young, boy-like voice, hopeful,

67:49less clever, less witty, more simple.

67:52That simplicity is there.

67:54And he's not, I mean, that takes guts to be so simple,

67:57I would say, lyrically and musically.

68:01Is there, sort of laying that out on the table,

68:06is there ways that you like to highlight the voice,

68:11the lyrics, or is there's no one rule?

68:16So do you, what is the thing that makes music special?

68:20Is it the rhythm, the melody,

68:24or is ultimately the lyrics are always there, or the idea?

68:28- You just asked me five different questions.

68:29- I don't care, I'll just get back.

68:31(laughs)

68:32It's not about you.

68:33(laughs)

68:35- You don't want the answers.

68:36- I don't want the answers.

68:37- Just wanna ask questions.

68:38Okay, I'll listen.

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68:40(laughs)

68:42- I look forward to your comments, the internet.

68:45Okay.

68:46(laughs)

68:48You have the greatest producer of all time in front of you,

68:50and you can't shut the hell up.

68:52That's right, friends.

68:54Is, but you do value lyrics.

68:57Is there a way to celebrate lyrics?

68:59- I value lyrics if the lyrics are important.

69:01I'm not a lyric person.

69:03I'm very much, whatever the thing that makes the thing good

69:08is the thing that I'm drawn to, for me.

69:11For a long time, lyrics meant very little.

69:14I would say from the--

69:16- Really?

69:17- Yes. - In the beginning?

69:18- Yes.

69:19From the earliest days--

69:19- Fight for your right to party, Beastie Boys?

69:22- Yeah, it was fun.

69:23I thought they were good lyrics,

69:25but it wasn't what was important.

69:27I mean, it was in a, almost a novelty way,

69:31not in a serious way.

69:33Early in my career, I was much more focused on the rhythm,

69:38first the rhythm.

69:40And I would, if the lyrics weren't good enough,

69:44I would be aware of it,

69:45but it wasn't the driving force for me.

69:48And eventually over time,

69:50then melody became an important piece,

69:52which it wasn't in the beginning.

69:54And then lyrics became more important over time,

69:58but it's always been a,

70:00always changing what draws me in.

70:05And one of the things I found as it relates to lyrics

70:08that can give a lyric a different power

70:13has to do with rhythm, where if there's no drum,

70:20the lyrics tend to mean more.

70:22So earlier what you were saying about

70:26if it was just acapella,

70:27you felt Marvin Gaye in a different way

70:31hearing the acapella.

70:32- Can you comment on, I mean,

70:35in terms of one of the greatest albums ever,

70:39♪ There's a fire starting in my heart ♪

70:48- Why does it sound so raw, her voice?

70:52- She's just a great singer.

70:53- But this is, you're not doing anything else.

70:56You're doing the, there's strumming,

71:01and then there's just a single beat.

71:03And then it builds.

71:07♪ Don't underestimate the things that I will do ♪

71:12♪ There's a fire starting in my heart ♪

71:17♪ I'm reaching a fever ♪

71:18♪ Pigeon is bringing me out the door ♪

71:22♪ The scars of your love remind me ♪

71:25- This is getting simpler,

71:26but it feels like it's a giant orchestra.

71:28♪ I'm reaching a fever ♪

71:29♪ And look, we almost had it all ♪

71:31♪ The scars of your love, they leave me breathless ♪

71:36♪ I can't help feeling ♪

71:38♪ We couldn't have it all ♪

71:43- There's back and vocals.

71:46♪ Rolling in, you have my heart ♪

71:48♪ I'm loving when she's mad at me ♪

71:50- The anger.

71:51♪ Never let me be ♪

71:53- I love it.

71:54♪ I never could have been ♪

71:58♪ Baby, I have no ♪

72:01- It just, there's something about such a powerful voice

72:06and the instruments not getting in the way.

72:08I mean, the same with her and Johnny Cash.

72:12Is there, why does it sound so like raw?

72:17It's the same as her.

72:19There's a, it feels like you're in the room with them.

72:22It feels like they're not even singing.

72:25They're like, they're literally freshly mad and angry.

72:30- I think those are the things

72:31that make great singers sound like great singers.

72:33It's not anything that's happening in the studio.

72:37I mean, I would say the only thing

72:40that us in the studio can do

72:41is kind of get out of the way and not ruin it.

72:46You know, it's like, that's what comes through

72:51of these people.

72:53- I should also, before I forget,

72:56there is a lot of song choices on that CD.

72:59I would love to see the full options on the CD

73:01that you sent to Johnny Cash that I love.

73:03So "Solitary Man" is one of my favorite choices made there.

73:07Is that a Neil Diamond song?

73:11- It's funny you talk about them as songs

73:12'cause I tend to listen more to albums than songs.

73:17So.

73:18- That's what you're doing in your head.

73:20You're pulling up the album, essentially.

73:23- No, I'm like, I'm going to that song,

73:25but I don't know, I've never listened to that song.

73:27But I know that when that song comes up

73:29in the sequence of the album,

73:32it has a really powerful effect in me.

73:34Let's see what it does if you just start it.

73:36(gentle music)

73:38(gentle music)

73:41♪ If you could read my mind ♪

73:56- Oh, so interesting.

73:58Wow.

74:00♪ Just like an old time movie ♪

74:06♪ About a ghost from a wishing well ♪

74:11♪ In a castle dark ♪

74:14♪ Or a fortress strong ♪

74:16♪ With chains around my feet ♪

74:21♪ You know that ghost is me ♪

74:25♪ And I will never be set free ♪

74:30♪ As long as there's a ghost that you can't see ♪

74:35(gentle music)

74:37- That's beautiful.

74:40- If I could. - Such a beautiful choice.

74:41- Beautiful melody. - Try.

74:43- Such a beautiful melody in "Haunting Words".

74:46- It's sung so simply.

74:48I have to, I mean, so I was born in the Soviet Union.

74:53When you're growing up,

75:01there's a few bands that kinda,

75:05I mean, they're probably forbidden still,

75:07but they seep in and you get like bootlegged

75:12and they somehow take over the culture

75:15of the young folks such as myself.

75:18So on the metal side, it was Metallica and Iron Maiden.

75:22And on the, I don't know what you call them,

75:27but Beastie Boys, I remember hearing "Fight for Your Right"

75:32and it was just like, for some reason that stuck

75:37as it did for a lot of people in Russia.

75:39It's like, wow, America is when you get to say fuck you

75:42to the man, the rebellion, the freedom.

75:45I probably heard it a few years after it was released

75:50because it kinda, it dissipates to the culture.

75:52You get the bootleg, I mean, it's hard to get your hands on.

75:55I just remember, I wanna kinda bring that up

75:58because it was such a personally important song to me.

76:03And yet probably you didn't even think of that.

76:06You probably thought of it as its role in the culture here

76:09in the United States, like in terms of musically.

76:12- But I was 20, 21 years old and we just--

76:16- Well, you were that kid too, right?

76:17- Yeah, we were just making fun songs for our friends.

76:19There was no expectation.

76:22- That's just a fun song.

76:24- Yeah, no one thought, we never imagined

76:26anybody would like any of it.

76:28- One of the greatest albums ever.

76:30♪ Yeah ♪

76:32I have to, I love this so much.

76:37I just remember, this is America.

76:41I didn't even know, I didn't even understand the lyrics

76:50to be honest.

76:51♪ You wake up like a school man ♪

76:55♪ You don't wanna go ♪

76:57And the lyrics are ridiculous.

76:59- Ridiculous.

77:00♪ Yeah, I get my way ♪

77:02♪ But you still said no ♪

77:07♪ You missed two classes and no homework ♪

77:13♪ But your teacher brings you to life ♪

77:16♪ Like you're some kind of jerk ♪

77:21♪ You gotta fight for your right to party ♪

77:26- So hearing that and hearing Metallica, Master of Puppets,

77:31I was like, I knew I'm gonna have to end up

77:34in America one day.

77:35I mean, maybe now that I'm more mature

77:40or maybe a little bit more mature,

77:42I realized that was kind of the longing for freedom.

77:46It felt like, at least at the time,

77:49if this is allowed, then anything is allowed.

77:51- Yeah.

77:52- And I think that the rebellion of it,

77:57I guess it's also fun.

78:01I just loved it.

78:04If you look back to that, 'cause you were,

78:06I mean, you were that person, not just the producer.

78:11It feels like--

78:12- Well, yes and no.

78:13Like it was, even to us then, it was still satirical.

78:16You know, it wasn't just-- - It was.

78:17- Oh, absolutely.

78:18But isn't music in part, like you're dancing in the line,

78:22it's part satirical, part serious in the sense,

78:25like you're losing yourself in the satire?

78:27Anytime you go over the top, isn't that part of the,

78:32or is it explicitly satirical?

78:37You're making fun, I mean, "Girls,"

78:39there's a lot of ridiculous songs in that album.

78:41- I don't know, I just think it was definitely

78:43to make each other laugh.

78:45Like we were trying to make each other laugh.

78:47We weren't trying to make a point.

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78:49We were trying to make each other laugh.

78:51- But that person, how's that person different

78:55than the person today in you?

78:57The person that produced that record?

78:59- I wouldn't say so different.

79:01It's like, it really is that,

79:02I like things that make me laugh.

79:06You know, I like ridiculous things.

79:07- It's the same person still.

79:08- I think so.

79:10- Is it strange, just how many incredible--

79:13- I mean, I don't think I would make that today,

79:15but I understand why we made it when we did.

79:18It's in the vocabulary of ridiculous

79:23that would make sense to do.

79:26You know, for the right artist today,

79:27could make something ridiculous and gives you that feeling.

79:31- I mean, there's just a sense when you make

79:35so many different albums,

79:39then you look back at that creation,

79:41and it can feel like a different person created that.

79:44But you're making it seem like if you travel back in time,

79:48or maybe do a memory replay,

79:50you'd be able to hang out with a teenage

79:54and then a 20s recruitment.

79:56- I don't think I was so different, honestly.

80:01- That's hilarious.

80:02- It's funny, I ran into someone recently in Costa Rica,

80:07who I hadn't seen in a long time,

80:11and who I knew from the New York days

80:13when those days, and we spent a couple of hours talking

80:18and she said, "You're exactly the same person

80:22that you were then."

80:23So I have a short, you know, a recent confirmation

80:28that that's the case.

80:30- That's beautiful.

80:31Was it, Tim Ferriss asked you about like,

80:33who's the most successful person you know?

80:35That's the definition of success, I would say.

80:37You're exactly the same person.

80:39You haven't lost yourself,

80:41or rather you found yourself early on.

80:43- I would say there are aspects of me

80:46that have changed for sure,

80:47but I can't say that it's necessarily better.

80:53It's different.

80:55I would say at that time,

80:59I was more confident than I am now,

81:03and I'm very confident now,

81:05but then I had an unrealistic confidence.

81:10And I think now it's a little more based in reality.

81:13At that point in time, I had never been depressed.

81:17And then once you go through a depression,

81:19well, some people I know in my case,

81:23when I went through depression afterwards,

81:25I was a different person than I was before.

81:27And I feel more grounded now than I did then.

81:33And I probably relate to the artists who,

81:39so many of the artists I work with suffer.

81:41So many artists suffer because that's part

81:43of what makes an artist great,

81:44is their level of sensitivity.

81:47That the same thing that makes an artist uncomfortable,

81:53other people don't feel at all.

81:54- The time you were depressed,

82:01what was the darkest moments of your life?

82:03What took you there?

82:04How did you get out?

82:06- It was triggered by a person making a comment

82:10about something to do with work that didn't matter.

82:14It was like to anyone else, they would hear that

82:17and it would just be like,

82:18"Okay, we'll deal with it next week, whatever."

82:20But for some reason, I took it in a way that I felt

82:25like the rug had been pulled out from under me.

82:28Even beyond the rational part of it, of understanding,

82:33even after the problem that came up was solved,

82:36it somehow undermined something in me

82:40and made me feel very vulnerable

82:41in a way that I hadn't felt before.

82:44- And it spiraled, how did you get out?

82:47- I did a lot of different kinds of therapy.

82:50I did, starting with alternative therapies,

82:54I was seeing, I would say,

82:58between seven and eight doctors and or therapists a week.

83:03Acupuncture, talk therapy, herbs,

83:12or any possible modality, tried everything for a long time.

83:19And nothing seemed to have an impact.

83:26And then finally, I'm wary of taking any Western medicine.

83:31I'm not a drug taker or drinker or partier in any way.

83:40And I found a psychopharmacologist who was a psychic,

83:48but because she was a psychic, I was okay to see her

83:52'cause like, I'll listen to a psychic,

83:56but I'm not gonna listen to a psychopharmacologist.

83:59But the fact that she had the psychic,

84:02that made her fit into my worldview.

84:05And she recommended antidepressant,

84:09which went terribly wrong in the first night that I took it.

84:13And then that set me on a journey

84:15of looking for the right antidepressant,

84:17which was a long and painful process.

84:20- That's a heck of a journey.

84:21- Every one that I took made me sick, every one.

84:24And then finally, so I don't know, five months later,

84:27six months later, I found the magic one that worked for me.

84:31And it shifted me out of the depression.

84:36I took it for, I can't remember, it was six months

84:40or a year, and then weaned off and was okay.

84:43And then I had another event some years later.

84:46I think I took it again for a short period of time

84:50and got out of it and I've not needed it since.

84:52- Were you able to kind of introspect the triggers

84:56that led to the events?

84:57Or is it random events of life?

85:02- I think it's more that because of the way that I grew up,

85:07I never had to deal with much controversy.

85:12And when I was challenged,

85:18I didn't have any ability to deal with it.

85:21It's like Jonathan Haidt talks about, it's like that.

85:26- So you've actually also mentioned

85:28like business sometimes gives you stress.

85:30So this was business-related stuff.

85:33- Yeah, it was a business-related thing.

85:35It just made me feel bad.

85:37- It's one of the sadder things about art and music

85:40is that it's often interleaved with business folk.

85:44I suppose that's the way of the world

85:47if you have a capitalist system,

85:49but it makes that business folks rubbing up against artists

85:54can sometimes destroy a fragile mind and soul.

86:01To me, like one of the best representations of an artist,

86:07honestly, is Johnny Ive, the designer from Apple.

86:09And he's just so fragile with his ideas.

86:12And you talked about like when he has ideas,

86:14he really wouldn't show it to Steve Jobs or anybody

86:17except for the small design team

86:19'cause he was so nervous that it would break.

86:22Let's give it a chance, let it give it a chance to grow.

86:25And it seems like the outside world,

86:28business people, PR people,

86:31people that kind of have not lost themselves

86:35in the passion of creating,

86:37but instead are kind of representing

86:38or like making deals, all that kind of stuff.

86:42They can kind of trample on those little ideas.

86:45And it's sad to see.

86:47It's really heartbreaking to see

86:50'cause you know how much trampling there's going on.

86:53- It's one of the main jobs,

86:54my jobs as a record producer is to keep the voices

86:59away from the artist,

87:03from all of the people who are really on their side,

87:06but don't know, like the, whether it be people,

87:10anyone on the business side who doesn't make things

87:15they're excited to do their part.

87:17You know, they're excited.

87:18If when you deliver the thing, the art that you make to me,

87:21then we can start the project.

87:23But there's nothing to sell

87:27if the art doesn't happen in the right way

87:30and it has to be protected and it can't happen

87:33on the same kind of a timetable that business can.

87:37It's just a different thing.

87:40It doesn't, art doesn't come in a quarterly way.

87:43- And that doesn't apply just to music or it applies to art,

87:47it applies to all creative pursuits.

87:49Like this is generally the case, like at MIT,

87:52it's just, there's the administration

87:56and then there is the professors and students.

88:00And the professors and students are the creative folk.

88:03They create stuff, they dream,

88:04they have wild ideas that go on tangents and so on.

88:07They have hopes and they go with those

88:11and they get like on these weird, passionate pursuits

88:13and then the administration can often just trample on that.

88:17And they set up bars on all kinds of,

88:22in all kinds of ways

88:24that you think you're not actually hurting,

88:26but you really are.

88:30And I won't mention why, but,

88:33'cause this happens to everybody

88:35and I have a large amount of leverage at MIT now,

88:38but even I get a little bit of pressure

88:40in such stupid ways to like, don't,

88:43like be careful, be careful, Lex.

88:47Like we really want your career to succeed, be careful.

88:50And that little pressure to an artist,

88:53do you wanna go acapella?

88:55Do you wanna go, do you want to do a country record?

88:59Like be careful, like you're already a superstar,

89:01be careful.

89:02And then in that way, you kinda push people,

89:05like flock of fish into one fish tank

89:08but they're all the same.

89:10And it's sad to see.

89:12And it's obviously in the modern world,

89:14there's nice mechanism to protect,

89:17to let artists flourish a little bit more

89:19'cause they get to put themselves to the world

89:21and get a little bit more confidence,

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89:23maybe different funding mechanisms, all that kind of stuff.

89:26- Tremendous problem.

89:27The voices that don't understand

89:30interfering with the process is huge.

89:32The other side of it is in success,

89:35there can be a lack of reality

89:37where all of the people around the successful person

89:40just tell them everything they do is great.

89:43And then they don't have anything to bump up against anymore

89:47or have a realistic sense of how things work

89:52or how things measure.

89:57So both sides are really important,

90:01both avoiding the voices getting in the way

90:07and having a trusted group of, a sangha,

90:11a group of people who can say,

90:15I don't know if that's as good.

90:16And you can still say, I don't care what you think,

90:19that's fine, but it helps to hear it.

90:21It helps to have, if someone who you respect

90:26tells you something isn't good enough, it's helpful.

90:31- When you know it comes from a place of love,

90:33when it comes from a place of wisdom.

90:35- 100%, and not from a place of fear,

90:37not from a place of, oh, this doesn't sound like

90:40it's gonna do as well as your last thing.

90:42That's not the point.

90:45The point is on this quest for greatness,

90:49are you living up to your ability?

90:55- By the way, is there something interesting to say

90:56about your worldview?

90:58'Cause you mentioned psychic

90:59and sort of the ways we can be healthy,

91:04the ways we can grow in how much maybe medicine

91:09or science has the answers.

91:14Is there some interesting way to describe that worldview?

91:18- I would just say I'm open-minded.

91:19I believe anything's possible.

91:21And if I was gonna trust in any practical information,

91:26it would be something thousands of years old.

91:29- There's wisdom in that history, yeah.

91:33- Well, it's more tested.

91:35It's not always right,

91:38but at least it's been somewhat tested.

91:42- Though science is also tested.

91:44The thing I'm a little bit skeptical of sometimes

91:47is just the hubris that often comes with the modern,

91:50with the latest, the newest,

91:51this feeling like you figured it all out.

91:54Everything that's been done in the past has no wisdom.

91:57And we basically solved every problem.

92:00There's nothing else to be solved.

92:02I mean, that's a defining characteristic of any age

92:05is like we've solved all the problems there are,

92:07we've had the final answers,

92:09and our parents are all stupid.

92:11That kind of energy, yeah.

92:14And you have to be extremely, extremely careful with that

92:16when it talks about,

92:17when you think about something as complex

92:19as the human body or the human mind,

92:21you have to be very, very, very careful.

92:23- I believe we know close to nothing.

92:26- Yeah, exactly. - Close to nothing.

92:28- That's-- - About anything.

92:30- About anything. - About anything.

92:31- That place of humility is a good place

92:33to start to figure it all out.

92:36And in the end, we'll still know almost nothing.

92:38- Yeah, I don't think we need to know.

92:41It's like we need to see what works,

92:42and we need to see what works for us.

92:44It's interesting to know.

92:46I know on the art side,

92:48knowing how it works isn't what makes it work.

92:53Isn't the magic of it, isn't how it works.

92:55The magic is the magic.

92:57And the magic happens in a way that's intuitive

93:02and accidental at times,

93:04or incidental where you're trying many things,

93:07all of a sudden something works,

93:09and you don't know why.

93:12And it's okay not to know why.

93:14It doesn't really matter why,

93:16as long as it does the thing that you want it to do,

93:19whatever that is.

93:21- Yeah, that's so weird.

93:22When you know the components,

93:24you don't, you still, yeah, the magic.

93:26What's the magic, where is the magic?

93:28We know the components for stuff I care about,

93:30artificial intelligence.

93:31We know the components of a powerful computing machinery.

93:36Where does consciousness come from?

93:38What is that?

93:40Where does the brilliant moments of insight come from?

93:46What's that?

93:48Even in simple games of chess, or in simple,

93:52where do those breakthrough ideas

93:54of taking the big risk that doesn't make any sense,

93:56and then all of a sudden it becomes something beautiful.

93:59Yeah, we don't need to understand why.

94:00It just happens.

94:01- It just happens.

94:02And often the things that end up breaking through

94:05don't break through in the way we thought,

94:08or turn out to be a third iteration of something

94:11that we thought was an entirely different thing.

94:14We don't know.

94:16And I think it's, if we embrace that not knowing,

94:20we'll have a healthier experience going through life.

94:24- You made a lot, it's not just music, everything.

94:27Rearranging the chairs, the furniture as well.

94:30You've done, like I said, the documentary,

94:32I guess you would say, with Paul McCartney.

94:35And you've done a podcast yourself,

94:39Broken Record podcast,

94:41and you've done conversation too.

94:44So what have you learned from that process

94:46about the art of conversation?

94:48And also maybe what advice would you give to this,

94:53to me about how, what to do with conversation?

94:57Like what is interesting to you about conversation?

95:00- One of the things that I like

95:03is to not feel like it's,

95:06there is any stakes,

95:09or that it's actually, almost that it's not happening.

95:12Like the fact that when I came in,

95:14you were setting up cameras,

95:17made it less good for me.

95:19I knew that that would impact the conversation

95:21in a negative way.

95:22The best version of it would be

95:24if we didn't see the cameras,

95:26and we didn't see any technology,

95:29and we were just sitting at this table

95:30having a conversation.

95:31Maybe even if we were mic'd beforehand,

95:34would be okay if it was necessary.

95:37But then we were just sitting here having a conversation,

95:39no people in the room, nothing,

95:41and feeling like we're just having a conversation.

95:43I feel like it would get closer to,

95:47closer to the relaxed feeling.

95:52Same thing we do in the studios.

95:54Like you've heard of red light fever,

95:56you know when artists get nervous

95:58when like they play a song great,

96:00and then the tape starts rolling,

96:01and they can't play it.

96:03And it's, we're all to some degree like that.

96:06- When you were with Paul McCartney,

96:08I mean, were you cognizant of cameras?

96:12- We had the room black.

96:14Everybody who was working there was dressed in black.

96:17Everything was invisible.

96:19We were lit in a way where,

96:21even though there were probably 20 people,

96:26between 12 and 20 people working in the room,

96:29within three minutes of starting the conversation,

96:32Paul and I were alone in the room.

96:34So that was the feeling.

96:36On occasion you'd hear a noise, and it would be weird.

96:39People, we also had, nobody was allowed to wear shoes,

96:42because it had to, we were trying to create

96:45this intimate space.

96:47And I know from in the recording studio,

96:50when we're recording, if even one person is there,

96:55that's just watching and not working,

96:57you know, like there's usually,

97:00I'm usually there, and an engineer is there

97:02technically making it happen.

97:04If anyone else is in the room, it's different,

97:06because then it goes from this moment

97:09where the person's doing a performance,

97:11to the sense, or where the person is

97:14feeling something internally, and we're capturing it,

97:21to the other version is, they're performing for someone.

97:25- It's so interesting.

97:26So like to push back in the alternatives here.

97:29So one, about the third person,

97:32not to make people self-conscious,

97:33but I find that I'm so torn on that,

97:37'cause sometimes when that person,

97:40so Evan is in the room here,

97:41he's been in the room before,

97:42he's a huge fan of yours, by the way.

97:45So he'll nod, yeah, yeah, he'll get excited.

97:50He's like, and you can see that nodding,

97:53and for some reason for me, it's like, yeah,

97:56you get it, like, yeah, you get excited together.

98:00I mean, that third person can be like a really special,

98:03so having an audience, when it's a friend,

98:08or somebody that has that love in them.

98:10- It depends on the performer.

98:11It's all positive, yeah.

98:12Yeah, some people really thrive in front of an audience.

98:17- And you're saying you like that simple intimacy

98:19of everything just evades.

98:20- Well, I like the reality of it not being,

98:22I want it to be as far from a performance as possible.

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98:24- Got it.

98:25- And if someone, I'll tell you a story,

98:29a story that just happened, and it was viewed as kind of a,

98:33it seemed uncool in the moment

98:35to the person that it happened to.

98:37It wasn't at all.

98:38We were recording the new "Chili Peppers" album,

98:42which is coming out, I think, any day now.

98:44Like, I don't know what today's date is,

98:46but within the next, maybe by the time this airs,

98:49it will be out.

98:50And the band was playing in the studio,

98:55and it was ripping 'cause they're incredible.

98:58And one of the members walked through the control room

99:04after a particularly great performance,

99:08and the engineer said, "Wow, that solo's really great."

99:12And the person who heard this said,

99:16"Please don't say that," and walked away.

99:19It's like, it was not, it just changed

99:23this feeling of we're in this place

99:27where we're doing this thing,

99:28and there is no outside world.

99:31You know, we're doing this for us.

99:33We're going as deep as we can for us.

99:35And as soon as there's an acknowledgement to someone else,

99:38in a way, it breaks the concentration of being inside of it.

99:43- That's so well told.

99:47But something about saying, "Wow, that solo's great,"

99:51is shows the, it reminds you that there's an outside world,

99:55but I feel like there's a way to enter the inside world

99:59as an audience.

100:01So you just have to do that.

100:02(laughing)

100:04So it matters what you say.

100:06It matters how you look.

100:08It matters, so there's these generic compliments,

100:11not generic, but they sound in the way

100:15an outside world would interact,

100:18as opposed to in that creative thing

100:20where you're dancing around the fire together or something.

100:22- There's actually, I can tell you,

100:23there's another interesting one that happened to me,

100:25and I didn't know this until I saw the film of it,

100:27which was a strange one.

100:31We were recording with the Avett brothers,

100:34and the song was called "No Hard Feelings,"

100:38and it was this recording of "No Hard Feelings."

100:41(gentle music)

100:44♪ No hard feelings ♪

100:49♪ When my body won't hold me anymore ♪

101:06♪ And it finally lets me free ♪

101:12♪ Will I be ready ♪

101:17♪ When my feet won't walk another mile ♪

101:20- Such a great voice.

101:22- So beautiful.

101:23♪ Kiss goodbye ♪

101:27♪ Will my hands be steady ♪

101:31♪ When I lay down my fears ♪

101:34♪ My hopes and my doubts ♪

101:36♪ The rings on my fingers ♪

101:38♪ And the keys to my house ♪

101:41♪ With no hard feelings ♪

101:46♪ When the sun hangs low in the west ♪

101:56♪ And the light in my chest ♪

101:59♪ Won't be kept held a day any longer ♪

102:04♪ When the jealousy fades away ♪

102:11- So bright, so hopeful, so lighthearted.

102:14♪ For cash and lust ♪

102:17♪ And it's just hallelujah ♪

102:21♪ And love and thought ♪

102:24♪ Love and the words ♪

102:27♪ Love and the songs they sing in the church ♪

102:32♪ And no hard feelings ♪

102:41♪ God knows they haven't done ♪

102:46♪ Much good for anyone ♪

102:52♪ Kept me afraid and cold ♪

102:58♪ With so much to have and hold ♪

103:06♪ Mm-mm-mm ♪

103:11♪ When my body won't hold anymore ♪

103:17♪ And if I'm weak ♪

103:20♪ Let's be free ♪

103:24♪ Where will I go ♪

103:25- Does he sound as good in the studio?

103:28- Yes, every bit.

103:29♪ But the straight winds take me south ♪

103:32♪ Through Georgia plain ♪

103:35♪ And tropical rain ♪

103:39♪ Or snow from the heavens ♪

103:44♪ Will I join with the ocean blue ♪

103:50♪ Or run into a savior true ♪

103:55♪ And shake hands laughing ♪

104:00♪ And walk through the night ♪

104:03♪ Straight to the light ♪

104:05♪ Holding the love I've known in my life ♪

104:10♪ And no hard feelings ♪

104:15♪ Lord knows they haven't done ♪

104:24♪ Much good for anyone ♪

104:32♪ Kept me afraid and cold ♪

104:37♪ With so much to have and hold ♪

104:43♪ Under the burning sky ♪

104:49♪ I'm finally learning why ♪

104:55♪ It matters for me and you ♪

105:03♪ To stay and be here too ♪

105:08♪ The life that it's all we get ♪

105:14- It's building and building and building.

105:16♪ Oh, it's all we get ♪

105:21♪ Good as it's been to me ♪

105:28♪ I have no enemies ♪

105:33♪ I have no enemies ♪

105:40♪ I have no enemies ♪

105:46♪ I have no enemies ♪

105:50- Wow.

105:51He's got the power of like Jeff Buckley

105:55with more like so much more sort of flavor to the voice.

106:00He's go so many different places.

106:04It's cool when it's like acappella just mostly him.

106:07You could do like "Hallelujah"

106:09the Jeff Buckley way I could tell.

106:11It's incredible.

106:12That's an incredible song.

106:14Is this a new record?

106:15- This was, I don't know, four or five years ago,

106:18something like that.

106:19But what happened with this, that happened.

106:22And I mean, they're great and it's always good.

106:26But that performance in that moment

106:29was felt like the sky opened up.

106:32It was unbelievable.

106:32- But this was a single take?

106:33- This was a single take.

106:35- Oh, wow.

106:36- That was just like--

106:37- That was incredible.

106:37Yeah, that was perfect.

106:38That was perfect, yeah.

106:39- When it ended, I said, "Great, what do you wanna do next?"

106:44And they said, "We just need a few minutes."

106:50And they walked out and that's all I know.

106:53It's like, okay, I'm laying down,

106:54waiting until they're ready to start again.

106:56And in the film, there was a film made

106:59of the sessions of this.

107:01They went out and they're like,

107:02what was that like?

107:03Like, didn't he get what just happened?

107:06Like, because it was so heavy.

107:11- Yeah.

107:12- And it was just as heavy for me.

107:18And in the spirit of we're here to make

107:20the most great stuff we can,

107:22we're not gonna like open champagne.

107:24Like, that's not, it's like, great,

107:27what do you wanna do next?

107:28It's like, let's not revel in this.

107:33But they took it as like,

107:37this guy just like doesn't even understand

107:40what we're doing.

107:41(laughing)

107:42But I had no idea until I saw the film.

107:44- That's funny.

107:45- Whoa, that was the reaction.

107:46- Yeah, but I think your response

107:48is the right risk to take, right?

107:50'Cause it's the celebration at the end of a,

107:54you wanna keep like, people celebrate too early.

107:57- Yes, great.

107:58And now let's use that momentum.

108:01We're in the zone.

108:02What's next?

108:04- Yeah.

108:05But you, yourself in conversation.

108:08So you said that you wanna create this,

108:12would you use the word intimacy?

108:13Like, is it to create, or just the most real?

108:16Like there's no cameras, there's no mics.

108:19- I would say a place where you're comfortable to be naked.

108:21You know, a place where you can be your most vulnerable

108:25without questioning it.

108:27You wanna really be able to let your guard down

108:32and to, you know, if you wanna start crying

108:34when you're singing, whatever it is, whatever it is.

108:37And it's hard to get to that place.

108:39And again, just the idea of someone, you know,

108:41like, hey, that was good.

108:42That could take you right out of that going in,

108:46you know, going in.

108:47- It's so interesting to think about how to achieve that

108:51and still have mics.

108:53- Yeah.

108:54- That.

108:55- It's hard, it's harder, it's harder.

108:59- Some of it is space,

109:00some of it is raw conversational skill.

109:03Like there's something about certain,

109:07well, some of that is also just like,

109:09you have that, as I'm sure you are,

109:11there's a legend to Rick Rubin.

109:14And there's like my now friend Joe Rogan,

109:16there's a legend to him.

109:18And when you show up into Joe Rogan's studio,

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109:21the legend creates an aura.

109:24And he, I think, subconsciously or consciously uses it.

109:28To like, this is somehow, it's nervous, nervous, nervous.

109:34And then you realize, oh, he's just human or something.

109:39There's a relief.

109:40And then, yeah, you could be yourself.

109:43And that, so it's that nervousness, nervousness, nervousness

109:46and it's like, oh, it's not that,

109:48this legend is just a human and it's just, it's normal.

109:51So I don't know how that's done.

109:53But it's so interesting to think about how that's,

109:57because I forget recording,

110:00I just enjoy it when it's real.

110:02Like this microphone gives us an excuse

110:05to connect on a human level and forget,

110:07and nobody's listening, it doesn't matter.

110:09- I would say I felt maybe in the last 15 minutes,

110:12I was less aware of anybody else being in the room

110:14or any equipment here.

110:16- Yeah. - But it took that long.

110:17- That's so interesting.

110:19I didn't have that at all.

110:21All I had, I mean, the wind calmed down outside,

110:25but there was a wind before.

110:27And there's something about the wind,

110:29that you can think of it

110:30from an audio engineering perspective.

110:33Like, oh, I wonder if the wind creates sound

110:35or whatever that you hear.

110:36But I was thinking like, none of this matters.

110:39(laughing)

110:41Like the wind is like nature will be here before us,

110:46after us, and all of this will be dead and forgotten.

110:49That's what the wind was reminding me of.

110:51It's almost like laughing at the fact

110:52that we could even consider ourselves important enough

110:56to put on clothes and talk.

111:01You love it, you love talking.

111:03You love the podcast and just that.

111:07Why did you dive into that?

111:09Like why?

111:09- It was a strange occurrence.

111:13My friend Malcolm said he wanted to start doing a podcast

111:16about music and asked if I would do it with him.

111:18He's like, I like Malcolm.

111:19And I thought it would be more like his podcast,

111:22which is, it's not an interview podcast.

111:24I thought it was gonna be telling stories

111:27in the music world using audio stories.

111:33And then it just started being interviews.

111:37Not again, it wasn't intentional,

111:39just started that way and ended up being that.

111:42But I love it.

111:43And I love both because I get to talk to people

111:46that I don't know, but also when I get to talk to people

111:48that I know and ask them about things

111:51that we would never talk about ever.

111:53I don't know the origin stories of any of the people,

111:55any of my friends.

111:57So to get to hear their perspective,

111:59another like relating to Chili Peppers,

112:01their album's coming out now.

112:04I interviewed all four members of the band individually.

112:08I interviewed John and midway through Anthony came in

112:13and then I interviewed Flea separately

112:15and I interviewed Chad separately.

112:17And it was fascinating.

112:19I know them for 30 years and I learned a tremendous amount

112:22because you don't ask people about themselves

112:25when you're just workmates or friends.

112:30I do this sometimes, I'll just set up my microphones

112:33and I'll record a thing for private consumption

112:36from with friends or loved ones.

112:38- Yeah. - It's fascinating.

112:38- Good idea.

112:39- 'Cause you get to ask those ridiculous questions.

112:42First of all, about life, about the future,

112:44about the past, about little fears and the things you miss.

112:48And yeah, there's something people just reveal.

112:51First loves, all those kinds of things.

112:55Your view on love, your view on,

112:58and those are things don't come up in regular conversations.

113:01It's so nice that that's something about,

113:04see, that's the pushback.

113:06There's something about this microphone

113:07or maybe it's just the deliberate nature of sitting down

113:10and let's just talk.

113:11There is something about the microphone that for me thinks,

113:16just same with the suit.

113:18I'm gonna take this moment seriously.

113:20I've long forgotten that anyone is listening.

113:23I'm gonna try to really listen to another human,

113:27first of all, and to also ask the questions

113:32that are really interesting.

113:35I feel like when I talk to normal people out on the street,

113:38I'm not allowed to ask anything.

113:40I'm allowed to ask only the more generic things.

113:44- I think you can ask anything.

113:46- I'm starting to think that.

113:47- I think you're allowed to ask anything.

113:50- I think you're allowed to basically do anything,

113:54especially in Texas.

113:55- Yeah, I think it's okay to ask people

113:57and I think people like it when you ask them.

114:00People like to be seen and like to show who they are.

114:05- As the wind blows again,

114:08do you have advice for young people?

114:10You have a fascinating life journey.

114:14Is there advice you can give to people in high school

114:19and college about how to have a life like yours

114:25in whatever pursuit in terms of,

114:28success is such a silly word,

114:32but just find success or maybe happiness in career

114:37or just in life in general?

114:40- Yeah, the only advice I would have

114:43would be to not listen to anyone

114:46and to do what you love and to make things that you love,

114:50whatever it is, make your favorite things.

114:53Be the audience, you be the audience.

114:54Make the thing for you, the audience.

114:57And it doesn't really matter what anyone else thinks

115:02and if you have to get a job to support yourself

115:04so that you can make your art, that's fine.

115:07You can't make art for someone else,

115:10you can't make art with someone else in mind,

115:12I don't believe, I don't believe it can be good.

115:14- So what does success feel like?

115:16Are you grateful, are you proud of the work

115:21you've done in the past

115:22or is there some engine of constant dissatisfaction,

115:26like self-criticism of I could have done better?

115:30- No, I'm pleased with the work that we did,

115:33excited to keep working, it's fun.

115:36I don't know what else I would do with myself

115:37'cause I like making things, it's fun.

115:42I feel like it's my reason to be on the planet

115:44so I just keep doing it.

115:45- Whatever ideas are actually coming from elsewhere

115:50and are using your mind as a temporary vehicle,

115:54that's their purpose to be on this planet.

115:56Your purpose is to procreate and not die

116:00and eat regularly enough such that the brain is alive,

116:05it's a biological purpose.

116:07- Yeah, and anything I can do to keep the channel open

116:09to allow what wants to come through to come through,

116:12I'm a willing channel.

116:15- It's so interesting 'cause I'm extremely self-critical

116:17so you don't have that self-criticism harsh,

116:21like this could have been better, this--

116:25- If it could have been better, I would keep working on it.

116:27It's like if it could be better, it's not done.

116:32- So when it's done, it's done.

116:37- Well, it's the best it can be.

116:39I've done everything I can to make it the best it can be

116:43and I can't do more than that

116:45so there's nothing to be critical of.

116:47I did my very, if you always give all of yourself

116:51and do your best, which you're capable of doing,

116:54I'm not suggesting that you're capable

116:57of doing more than you can do,

116:59but whatever it is that you can do,

117:01if you've given all of yourself to it,

117:03you've done your best, where could there be regret?

117:07- Yeah, there could be, you re-listen to an album,

117:11you re-listen to anything you've created

117:14and think, oh, there's so many interesting ideas missed.

117:17- It's fine though, but that was that moment.

117:19It's like everything is like a,

117:22it's almost like a diary entry.

117:25Everything we make is a reflection of a moment in time,

117:28a window in time.

117:30Could be a day, it could be a year,

117:32it could be whatever window you decide that it is.

117:37But if you give it all of yourself

117:40and you know if you're not interested

117:42in working on it anymore, it's done.

117:46Now you may decide it's not good enough

117:47to share with people and that's fine,

117:50but if it's good enough to share with people,

117:51there's no regret looking back.

117:54- That's funny, 'cause like think of it as a diary entry.

117:58It's hard to look back at a diary entry and say, you know--

118:01- I did it wrong. - I did it wrong.

118:03- It's impossible.

118:04- Yeah, and even if it's read by 100 people,

118:09a thousand people, a million people,

118:11it's just a diary entry. - Doesn't matter.

118:14- Speaking of doesn't matter, this life is finite.

118:17All of us, even recruitment, will be forgotten one day.

118:22Do you think about your mortality--

118:25- Tomorrow. - Tomorrow, yes.

118:27Do you think about the finiteness of this thing?

118:33Do you think about mortality, about your mortality?

118:36Does it make any sense to you?

118:37Do you think about death?

118:38Are you afraid of death?

118:41- I don't think about it very much.

118:44- Are you afraid?

118:45- I don't think I'm afraid.

118:48I mean, I don't wanna die,

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118:50but I know that that's in the cards,

118:53and when it happens, it happens.

118:55- Your nature of not wanting to die is kinda like,

118:59you don't wanna go to a shitty restaurant.

119:01You'd like to go to a nicer one.

119:02So it's just a preference thing.

119:03- Well, I wanna keep living

119:05because I wanna do what I like to do.

119:07So whatever, now who knows?

119:11Whatever comes next may be even better.

119:14Maybe we're, I don't know.

119:16I can't, I haven't experienced it yet, so who knows?

119:20- What do you think happens after we die?

119:23- I believe we go on in some capacity.

119:26I don't know what that means,

119:27but in the same way that everything recycles,

119:30everything comes around.

119:32I don't know why we would be different.

119:37- In some way.

119:38- In some way.

119:39I don't know what that way is,

119:39and I don't know that it's in the same being,

119:42or in the same grouping of information, whatever that is.

119:47But the thing that makes us us,

119:49that information, I imagine, goes on.

119:52- Yes, it does seem like our world here,

119:55at least on Earth, has a memory.

119:57And just like history, it kinda rhymes.

120:00It brings back creations of the past and riffs on them,

120:06improvises on top of them,

120:07and in that way, humanity propagates.

120:11- I mean, you see it with garbage.

120:12You see the mountains of garbage.

120:15It's like it doesn't really go anywhere.

120:17Even when it breaks up, it disintegrates,

120:19but it's never really gone.

120:22Same.

120:23- Is there anything in this world you're afraid of?

120:27- A lot of things.

120:28- But not death.

120:29- I mean, I don't know.

120:33I don't know.

120:34- What are you afraid of?

120:35- Death is more of a question mark.

120:36Again, I'm not in any--

120:38- To be answered.

120:39- Yeah, I'm not in any hurry for that to happen,

120:42but it will happen, and when it does,

120:45we get to experience what that is.

120:47- Well, okay, then the big question mark,

120:50what's the meaning of this whole thing?

120:52It's the meaning of life, Rick Rubin.

120:55- Putting my name on it makes it harder to answer.

120:59- It's just a diary entry, like we said.

121:03- It's true, it's true.

121:04- You will get a different answer tomorrow.

121:05Let's see, what's the meaning of life today?

121:07- Late and later today.

121:08It could be, so for people who don't know,

121:14we were maybe thinking of maybe meeting in Austin,

121:18have some barbecue, and now we're in the middle of nowhere

121:21in beautiful West Texas, and this is basically

121:26a glorified delivery of barbecue, of my favorite barbecue,

121:31maybe one of your top favorite barbecues,

121:34to one of my favorite humans,

121:36so we get to eat some barbecue today.

121:38Maybe that's the meaning.

121:39Do you have something bigger than barbecue?

121:44- Barbecue's pretty big.

121:45(Lex laughing)

121:46Barbecue's pretty good.

121:47- Where's your love for barbecue come from, by the way?

121:49Do you, is this--

121:49- Well, I was a vegan for 20-something years,

121:53and once I found my way back into eating meat,

121:58I think barbecue's my favorite of any of the things

122:01that I didn't eat for so long.

122:03- I have to ask you, I almost forgot.

122:09So there's an SNL skit with Will Ferrell that he wrote

122:13about "Don't Fear the Reaper,"

122:16where it's Bruce Dickinson as the producer.

122:19I always think about you when I see that skit.

122:21I don't know why, people should definitely watch it,

122:23and he demands more cowbell into the mix,

122:27and the whole band,

122:29this is how I imagine people interact with you.

122:31The whole band is really impressed.

122:32We get to work with the great Bruce Dickinson,

122:35and then it's played by Christopher Walken,

122:37and he says, "Fellas, fellas,

122:41I put on my pants one leg at a time,

122:44just like the rest of you,

122:46but once my pants are on, I make gold records."

122:49(Lex laughing)

122:50And I just, and then the whole skit continues,

122:54and he wants to add more and more cowbell,

122:56and Will Ferrell said he wrote that skit

122:58'cause he always heard the song "Don't Fear the Reaper,"

123:00and there's a distant cowbell.

123:02It's very light in the mix,

123:04and he's like, "I wonder what the story of that cowbell is.

123:09Like, if we just look at that one layer,

123:11who's that guy that was in there?"

123:13- That's me.

123:14- So is that basically exactly how your life is,

123:18is Bruce Dickinson from the cowbell?

123:20I don't know if you've seen that skit.

123:22- I don't think it's like that.

123:25- It's not, okay, all right.

123:27I'm just gonna pretend then.

123:28Rick, this is a huge honor that you sit with me.

123:32I mean, what can I say about how incredible of a human you are?

123:37You truly are out of this world,

123:40and thank you so much for talking today.

123:42- I'm a great fan.

123:42I'm so happy that you agreed to do this with me.

123:46- Thanks for listening to this conversation

123:49with Rick Rubin.

123:50To support this podcast,

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123:54And now, let me leave you with some words

123:56from Albert Einstein.

123:58Imagination is everything.

124:01It is the preview of life's coming attractions.

124:04Thank you for listening, and hope to see you next time.

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